very personal adsPersonal ads. They’re … personal! Very.

So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my Sunday ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!

Let us dooo eeeet.

Thing 1: a real weekend!

Here’s what I want:

Oh I want this so much it almost makes me cry.

I have not had a real weekend since August.

Four of those weekends I was teaching. The rest have been spent on my Kitchen Table program.

Trouble-shooting challenges, brainstorming solutions, planning the transition to the new year, rewriting the manual.

And then all weekend I’ve been doing that too. And I am done.

A weekend! For me! Please! And the most frustrating thing is knowing that it’s in my hands. It’s not like I’m waiting for someone else to okay it.

Ways this could work:

Even though there is still so much left to be done, I can remember that there is often lots left to be done. And that it will be okay.

My gentleman friend could whisk me away to a land with no computers.
I’ve already scheduled in lots of days off in 2011, and always after I teach on weekends.

Plotting and planning! But not today!

My commitment.

To figure out what is needed.

To reevaluate what my time is for. To appreciate what it means — for everyone involved — when I give it to myself.

To put out the gwish here and trust that a perfect, simple solution will make itself known. And if not, I’ll keep thinking on it.

A postscript to this one: I would prefer not to receive advice on this.

Thing 2: words!

Here’s what I want:

There is a completely genius idea that is living in my head right now and driving me crazy.

Right now it’s just zooming around in these amorphous ever-changing fireworks patterns. I am only catching glimpses, and it is magnificent.

So I need it to slow down and translate itself into words that can be written down, because that’s how I process information.

Ways this could work:

Ten minutes of Shiva Nata, of course. Since that’s where the brilliant idea came from to begin with.

I can ask for more information. Or for a clearer sense of what the patterns are.

Or for a tuning fork.

My commitment.

To appreciate what comes.

To be curious.

To talk to the monsters.

To dance dance dance!

Thing 3: announcements and timing…

Here’s what I want:

I have three things to announce to the Havi’s Announcing a Thing group this week (sign-up for that lives on the events page, if you’re interested).

So a bunch of things need to line up and fall into place for that.

Ways this could work:

I am invoking ease, smoothness, and efficiency.

And using Maryann’s secret play date.

Other than that, I’m not sure. But open to pleasant surprises.

My commitment.

To bring as much lightheartedness to this as I can stand.

To dance on it, walk on it, write on it, and let it happen in the best way possible.

Thing 4: smooth transition to Dry Dock.

Here’s what I want:

The Kitchen Table website is going into Dry Dock for a few days while we make a bunch of back-end fixes and set things up for Year Three.

In the meantime we have a hidden space for everyone to keep playing and checking in with each other.

And we have tech pirates working on trying to make the fixes happen as quickly as possible.

Ways this could work:

I would just like this to be an ease-filled transition.

My commitment.

Patience. Trust. Love. Stuff like that.

Or if I can’t manage any of that, to give myself permission to freak the hell out for a while.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted a word for something that isn’t a goal or a mission or a task, and got it. Destination. That’s what we’re using for now.

Then there was an ask about the Great Desk Switcheroo for the Playground. And a solution has presented itself that is not even slightly what I was imagining. Huh.

I was stalled on my 2011 schedule, and that got taken care of. It’s done and I love it.

And the last thing was seclusion. That’s worked pretty well. I said no to … well, most things that came my way. Avoidance mouse! It was great. Thank you.

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

Stuff I’d rather not have:

  • The word “manifest”.
  • To be told how I should be asking for things.
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given unsolicited advice.

Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! So glad for everyone doing this with me.