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Each week I write these VPAs to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Thing 1: my new morning thing

Here’s what I want:

The other day I had this massive understanding — a shivanautical Moment of Bing, in fact — about the whole “morning begins at night” thing.

And now I can’t find a link to where I’ve written about morning beginning at night. Is it in the Dissolve-o-Matic maybe? Does anyone remember this?

So I’ll probably have to write about it. Remind me.

But anyway. it was a clear vision of this morning ritual/something, which I prepare the night before. That way it’s both an exit practice for the day that is ending and an entry for the day I’m about to begin.

I love this! And I want to actually use it.

Ways this could work:

Not sure yet.

Maybe I’ll play with this at Rally (Rally!) which starts tomorrow night (!) and use the ridiculous assemblage of arts and crafts.

Maybe I can throw together a beta version based on my dazed post-epiphany notes and scribbles.

It might also help to talk with slightly future me about how this new morning thing has helped her, and what she thinks I should know about it.

My commitment.

To be receptive to many different ways that this could work.

To invoke the spirit of play. Play!

And to mess about gleefully, instead of trying to “get it right”, despite knowing that such a thing does not in fact exist.

To have a tea date with the monsters. And possibly not show up. But to invite as many negotiators as are needed.

Thing 2: obscenely ridiculous platform shoes

Here’s what I want:

So the stage at the Playground is not as high as I would like it to be.

Especially when we have twenty five people who all need to mirror me during Shiva Nata. And even though it’s Tall People To The Back, of course everyone wants to be in the back.

Which makes it hard to see properly.

What I really want is a higher stage. But in the meantime, I want some crazy high shoes.

Like RuPaul shoes.

And yes, I normally teach barefoot, but come on.

Ways this could work:

Suggestions and favorite shoes? Leave them here.

I could poke around downtown.

In the meantime, I am just throwing it in the pot.

My commitment.

To be silly and have fun with this.

And, of course, to not do anything high-impact when I’m wearing them. :)

And more monster tea dates, of course. Because Yoga Teacher Me is not liking this idea at all and is throwing shoes. They’re just little cotton slippers but I want to make sure that she’s okay.

Monster Tea Dates. Just one guy?

Thing 3: Setting the dates for next year’s Rallies!

Here’s what I want:

To decide on all the dates for our Rallies (Rally!) for the upcoming year.

Except that each time I start to do this, I freak just a leeeetle bit out over the fact that it’s already practically 2012 which is totally the future, and then I have a little aging crisis.

That’s entertaining!

So let’s not do that this time.

But I really do need those dates.

Ways this could work:

I’m thinking I can OOD it.

Ideally at the Rally.

In some sort of creative and amusing way. And again, monster tea dates, etc.

My commitment.

To have fun with this if I can.

To be patient with myself if I can’t.

To explore and find out what’s hiding in there. But without poking!

Thing 4: using/implementing/reviewing new system

Here’s what I want:

This past week I spent six hours revamping my systems for the Rally Orientation and some of the other parts of Rally.

This still needs work. But I won’t have time to play with it for a while.

And on Monday night I get a chance to see where I’m at with this.

So I want to observe and take notes, while not reserving judgment because this whole thing is still such a work in progress.

Ways this could work:

I can use the green pen to take meta notes in my Rallying notebook.

And I can do a spangly Revue at the end.

My commitment.

To appreciate me-from-last-week for getting this together in time for Rally #12.

To do what I can to help me-from-next-month who will be doing Rally #13.

To do this with popsicle permission slips and amnesty and ease — it’s a process and this is where I’m at with it.

Thing 5: excitement for Laura and for Maryann!

Here’s what I want:

Two of my people are quietly doing especially neat things right now.

Laura announced her Secret Boutique and it is gorgeous and amazing.

Maryann is doing a Day of Secret Playdating, which is going to be fantastic. She will also be at the September Rally if you want to meet her in person.

I would love to see lots of positive attention and excitement for these two beautiful projects.

Ways this could work:

I can tell you about them. You can visit and spread the word.

My commitment.

Excitement. Happiness. Rejoicing. Delight. Firgun. Another thing I need to write about, apparently!

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted stuff to happen with Island Time, and boy did it ever! Island Time has been one of the most incredible experiments I’ve ever done.

Then I wanted to spread the word about Colleen’s thing and that’s happening too! Right on.

I also had Oodles of OODs! And I still do. But progresses were made, and I’m feeling good about this even though there’s still a ton of work to do.

The next thing was about putting together a collection of Rally-relevant blog posts. Which I did. But it was so absurdly long that now I’m feeling conflicted about what happens next.

And I wanted people to come with me on the walk in Overlook Park, and I ended up going with Casey. So yay. Thank you, VPAs. And thank you, commenter mice and Beloved Lurkers!

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

Things that are welcome! Your own personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like.

Leave your gwishes! Throw things in the pot!

Things we try to keep away from: the word “manifest”, telling people how they should be asking for things, unsolicited advice.

VPA amnesty applies, of course. Leave yours any time between now and next Sunday (or whenever, really) — it’s all fine by us!

xox