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We are not impressed by monsters. Except when we are. We explore the connections between internal territories and surrounding environment to learn what marvelously supportive delicious space feels like, and how to take exquisite care of ourselves. We transform things.* We glow wild.**

* For example: Desire, fear, worry, pain-and-trauma, boundaries, that problematic word which rhymes with flaweductivity.

** Fair warning: Self-fluency has been known to lead to extremely subversive behavior, including treasuring yourself unconditionally, unapologetically taking up space, experiencing outrageously improbable levels of self-acceptance, and general rejoicing in aliveness.


And then I yell SILENT RETREAT and run away!

There is this marvelous thing that lives at the Playground.

This is actually something I invented for one of the early Rallies (Rally!), and it’s become a huge part of Rally culture.

It’s the right to decide at any given moment that you don’t feel like talking. And then claiming that right.

You can do it in the middle of a conversation, alone in the bathroom, at lunch, during the Evening Chicken, while wearing a teal wig, whenever you feel like it.

You declare Silent Retreat and then you don’t have to talk!

It’s not really what it sounds like.

That is to say, it’s not actually a silent retreat.

You don’t have to be in silence or remain in silence. And you don’t have to maintain silent retreat mode for any period of time.

It’s just an easy, graceful, temporarily-socially-acceptable exit from any situation.

If someone asks you a question while you’re at the Playground, it’s completely legitimate to answer with “You know what, I’m going to silent retreat on that one.”

And then you can talk about something else. Or not talk at all.

And when people from the outside world ask you what you’re doing in Portland, or your family wants to know what you did all day, claim Silent Retreat!

Or when you get that feeling that you just don’t know what to say. Or you remember that not everything requires a response… call Silent Retreat. Silent Retreat!

It gets you out of any sticky situation.

When someone is ranting.

I’d love to talk about this some more, but I’m on silent retreat.

When people need things from you.

Actually? I’m in the middle of a silent retreat.

When you need a buffer — or a moment to yourself to process things. When you fall into Internet Hangover. When you lose your connection to yourself.

Excuse me. Silent Retreat!

Or like this:

I’m going to answer your first two questions and then I’m going to invoke Silent Retreat for the third.

It’s good for HSPs (Highly Sensitive People) and other stripes of introvert. But really — when it’s part of the agreed-upon culture, the way it is at Rally — it’s good for everyone involved.

It also solves the pre-Rally “oh god we’re going to have to go around in a circle and share things” anxiety. You won’t ever have to do that unless you want to. Silent retreating is always an option.

Silent retreating is a sovereignty practice.

It combines lots of things we talk about here: sovereignty and amnesty, freedom and spaciousness.

If someone else declares silent retreat in the middle of a conversation, it’s not because you did anything wrong. It’s because they need spaciousness and they’re making sure they get it.

It’s another opportunity to separate our stuff from their stuff.

Calling silent retreat makes a lot of space. It’s a creative form of finding a buffer. It helps us with boundaries. And just knowing it’s an option makes all communication and all interactions easier.

The truth is, people hardly ever actually declare Silent Retreat at Rally. At least, not out loud or that I know of. But we know we can!

And it makes everything easier.

The real world!

The concept of silent-retreating is one of the things people miss most when Rally is over.

That and the blanket forts and the brain-flail and the epiphanies and the pie. And Rally glow, of course. :)

The idea that we can just declare our choice to not talk — and do this whenever we want to — is one of the aspects of Rally that I am most determined to bring out into the broader culture.

Can you imagine? I love it so much I can hardly stand it.

Person: So what do you do for a living?
Me: Silent Retreat!

My un-laws:
Me: Uh, Silent Retreat!

Person: So six of the top seven roller derby teams in the world are in your division. How is Portland ever going to make it to nationals?
Me: Silent Retreat!

And of course, STYLE!

When I declare silent retreat, I don’t just say it.

I do the Full Body silent retreat. I kind of kick up my legs and throw in some jazz hands and sing SILENT RETREAT!

And then I run away.

It’s kind of awesome.

You can do a more muted, whispered one if you like that better. There’s really no one right way to claim silent retreat. It’s all good.

Silent retreating also kind of exists here on the blog too.

Or it’s implied.

It’s why the comment zen here is always basically a version of: Play — if you want to! Or don’t! That works too.

That’s because the option of SILENT RETREAT is assumed. We don’t always want to say stuff and that’s okay. There are tens of thousands of people who read this blog who never or rarely comment here and that’s good. We adore the Beloved Lurkers.

Speaking of which…play? SILENT RETREAT!

You can play by yelling SILENT RETREAT and running away.

You can play by leaving tiny pebbles.

You can play by brainstorming ways in which we can bring the goodness of randomly claiming silent retreat into the real world the muggle world out there.

It’s all legitimate.

As always, we take responsibility for our own stuff, we let other people have their stuff, and we don’t give unsolicited advice. That is all.

Love to the commenter mice, the Beloved Lurkers, everyone claiming SILENT RETREAT and everyone who reads.

27 Responses to And then I yell SILENT RETREAT and run away!

  1. VickiB says:

    “My un-laws”! How perfect. I need a term for those people who would be related by marriage if a marriage happened.

    After my stepbrother divorced his first wife, and my mother divorced my stepfather, I started saying that my ex-stepsister-in-law and I used to be related by two marriages and now we are unrelated by two divorces. “Unlaws” is shorter and easier.

    I do silent retreat a lot. Mostly I say, “I’ll have to get back to you on that.”

    Sometimes I scowl really hard and say “I’m thinking. And it’s giving me a headache.” That always gets a laugh.

    One of my friends says “Well, that shut down my processor.”

    I really liked your mention of Style. I like that. I once did some work for a school administrator who always wanted to do things “with style and grace.” It’s one of my mantras now.

    One of the (many) things I like about this blog: Havi and the comment mice do things with style and grace.
    VickiB recently posted… Day 3- Out of Edinburgh

  2. Andi
    Twitter: annaline_39

    Tens of thousands of readers??? oh my. Definitely silent retreat on this one ;)
    Andi recently posted… One Part Inspiration

  3. andrea
    Twitter: gocreativedream

    I have to try this!


    … running away now…
    andrea recently posted… Creative Journal MAGIC

  4. andrea
    Twitter: gocreativedream

    ps. That was awesome
    andrea recently posted… Creative Journal MAGIC

  5. Kathleen Avins
    Twitter: spiralsongkat

    s. i. l. e. n. t. r. e. t. r. e. a. t.

    It’s nice to practice doing that deliberately, in a grounded and sovereign way, as opposed to just quietly hiding, which is what I sometimes do.

    It’s nice to share Silent Retreat with another person, too, if it’s someone who understands. Into the Cone of Silence!
    Kathleen Avins recently posted… Minimum daily requirements

  6. Orilea
    Twitter: orilea

    HAHA Kathleen! I love it.

    I TOTALLY call ‘Cone of Silence’ psychically and it sooo works! But for me that’s usually when I’m all up against the wall inside, so that has almost become an emergency measure.

    Silent retreat, though. It feels so gentle and nurturing. I might not even have to wait for an emergency to use it! :)

    Thanks, Havi.
    Orilea recently posted… A Prayer for Ease and Grace

  7. Lisa
    Twitter: lisarisbec

    ah silent retreat! I need this! sometimes I just hide but then I get weird looks. How to get this into the real world? hmmm…..

  8. Dawn says:

    Just hearing this: “‘oh god we’re going to have to go around in a circle and share things’ anxiety” and knowing you don’t do that, and that i can just be silent and it won’t be all awkward — oh, how i’d love to come to the Playground! But at least we can all play from afar…
    Dawn recently posted… Giving Myself the Silent Treatment

  9. Sarinne
    Twitter: NoiseHelp

    I remember reading a science fiction story where the society had a custom that anyone could simply say “Privacy” and it was understood that the person was claiming the right not to discuss something, and it was automatically respected, as common courtesy. I always liked that. “Silent Retreat” is even better, because you can claim it for any reason, not just because some particular question or topic makes you uncomfortable. I like VickiB’s alternate suggestions too!
    Sarinne recently posted… News Update- Noise Help is now on Twitter!

  10. Leni says:

    As I once said to my husband: I had no idea this was Okay, or I woulda done it myself by now.

  11. Sara
    Twitter: cyberdelia333

    Exactly what I need.

    Silent Retreat!
    Sara recently posted… Erma Says Mind the Gap- the May Elephant Coffee Klatch

  12. Anthony StClair
    Twitter: antsaint

    Or as Chili Palmer puts it, “Don’t say anything at all if you don’t have to.”

    I relish the silent retreat — there are few things more wonderful than knowing you can keep your mouth shut if you want. It’s a wonderful way to listen to the world.

  13. Heidi
    Twitter: HeidiDobbs

    I can imagine myself walking around with a post-it note on my shirt that just says ‘Silent Retreat’. And whenever anyone would ask me about it, I could just point at the note. Because it sort of explains itself.

    This may be especially exciting to me right now because I just bought bright yellow, star-shaped post-its.

    Or perhaps to keep my post-it’s with me, and when I need a moment of Silent Retreat, pulling one out and handing it to whomever… because sometimes, I realize mid-conversation that I have somehow been dragged into the territory of sharing more than I really wanted (there’s something about somebody asking me a question, I’m drawn to share an answer whether it’s something I want to talk about or not…).

    This could be very handy!
    Heidi recently posted… Listening to the Demands of my Heart

  14. Kate
    Twitter: ingoodcoproject

    Wow. If everyone knew about silent retreat, I wouldn’t need to avoid calling my parents any more!

  15. Caroline
    Twitter: Cazzylina

    *waves at thousands of lurkers*
    *leaves a fluffy hug and a pile of sparkle points at the playground door*

  16. Jess
    Twitter: openlybalanced

    Silent retreat = just what I need today.

    Jess recently posted… My CSA Share–A Breakdown

  17. Rose
    Twitter: celestialrose

    I think I invoke this sort of.. I do a majorly dramatic mime of thinking – hand to chin, stroke imaginary beard, raised eyebrow.. sometimes they laugh and we both forget they asked anything :P

    i really want to run around my house shouting that now.. [and then run away to my room again].. but my housemates and their gentleman friends are here :P
    Rose recently posted… Month V- half-way point of 3-2-1

  18. Mara Rose
    Twitter: Mararose10

    How utterly perfect :-).

    Someone famous once said, “Nothing is a clever thing to say”.

    I like “Silent Retreat” even better!
    Mara Rose recently posted… Sufism- the Islam of Love and Tolerance

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