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So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my Sunday ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!

Let’s do it.

Thing 1: To find another word that’s kind of like “sabbatical” but not.

Here’s what I want:

I have a big wish related to planning a sabbatical.

But I can’t call it that, because that particular word is extremely loaded for me.

And also because my personal definition for that particular word includes “sabbatical = something that will never actually happen” as one of its primary components.

So. What do you call a period of three months or more that involves the following?

  • extremely restricted internet access
  • lots of writing, on a specific project
  • plenty of time to nap, do yoga and Shiva Nata, and take walks in the rain.

I do not know. But it needs a name.

Ways this could work:

Obviously this needs some help from Metaphor Mouse. Metaphor Mouse!

Which is cool, because I actually dreamed about him Tuesday night.

Maybe some of my commenter mice will have Useful Suggestions too.

Or maybe I’ll put out an ask at the Twitter bar.

My commitment.

To brainstorm and namestorm. To dance until it shows up.

To be playful. To not agree to any name that isn’t fun.

And I will restrict myself to making Sabbatmobile jokes only when absolutely necessary.

Thing 2: To believe in the thing-that-is-not-a-sabbatical.

Here’s what I want:

I spent most of this past week thinking this through, figuring out which pieces would have to be moved where.

And how long it would take to plan in advance (probably a year).

But I believe it would be crazy good for me. Now I just have to believe that it’s possible.

What I know about what I need:

I need the conditions that put me in flow (quiet + movement + Shiva Nata + walking + sleep + meditation + water + uninterrupted time).

What this can’t be:

It can’t be a situation where I’m going into it because of burnout or poor health. It can’t be a situation where I’m retreating because I don’t like where I am.

It has to be a conscious choice, moving from the thing that is good to the next piece of good.

Ways this could work:

There are all sorts of ways this could work.

I just don’t know what they are yet.

But I’m willing for them to show up.

My commitment.

To pay attention and notice stuff.

To write down whatever objections my monsters (and uh, other loved ones) come up with, and not be impressed.

To come up with creative, unexpected solutions to said supposed objections, internal and external.

To ask interesting questions.

Thing 3: Ease of integration back from Pirate Queen Holiday.

Here’s what I want:

Today I’m coming back from my (mostly) delightful Official Non-Emergency Pirate Queen Holiday Vacation.

And there are stacks of things waiting for me.

My wish:

May this week be full of ease, efficiency, effortlessness and support.

Ways this could work:

Maybe there isn’t as much as I’m imagining there is.

My brilliant First Mate can probably take care of most of it.

I can surprise myself.

My commitment.

To be open to the possibility of things not completely sucking.

To ask for help when I need it.

Slow and steady.

Take it to a cafe when things get angsty.

Get Hiro magic for extra help.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

Let’s see. I asked for help with my glamorous secret spy mission. That worked pretty well.

I wore lots of eye make-up, which is very not me. And sunglasses. And heels. And avoided people. It was good.

Ooh. I also wanted to get a lot of non-work-related writing done, and that definitely happened. More than I’d bargained for, actually.

And I wanted a peaceful solution to a challenging, annoying situation. No idea if anything happened there as I haven’t been online.

So I’ll renew that ask, just in case.

The good part is that I haven’t really been thinking about it, which is already kind of a win, you know?

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

What I’d rather not have:

  • The word “manifest”.
  • Shoulds. As in, “You should be doing it like this” or “That’s not the right way to ask for things — instead it should be like x, y and z”
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given advices.

Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! So glad for everyone doing this with me.