Two years ago, in October, I ran an eight day Retreat called Crossing the Line, and all kinds of very interesting things resulted from that crazy beautiful week, but one of them is: I have a chocolate shop.

And last October I did the second Crossing, and that was even more amazing, sweet and intense. And what I got from that week was the information that Flowers Make Everything Better. Which started out as fake secret mission and turned into a a proxy, but then turned out to be literally true.

Not just literally true. True in other ways as well.

For example, turning my [big dream that didn’t work] into the Red Rose Ballroom. There it is. A red rose.

Flowers. Solved. Everything.

And that particular instance of flowers-solving-everything was one of the more important — and more astonishing— things that has ever happened in a life full of astonishing things.

Then this October…

This October, I began the Carousel of Rallies, the alphabet carousel, which is 26 weeks of playing at the Playground.

At the first of these I learned that not only do flowers (still) make everything better, there’s more:

The Answer Is Dancing.

So I have thrown myself into the world of dance. Or: returned to the world of dance.

Which makes the fact that I have a ballroom feel slightly more congruent. Also all the dancing is helping my ballroom, my ballroom that is a rose.

My ballroom that I didn’t want is now the ballroom that I do want, and it is okay that I didn’t realize this until now. It is okay that I am still not entirely sure how I feel.

This might not make any sense at all, and that’s okay too.

I just want to say that D is for Dance.

D is for Dance.

This week is Rally D, the fourth of the alphabet rallies, and one that I am, suddenly, extra-excited about. Which says a lot, because Rally is my favorite thing in the entire world.

D is for Dance.

D is for DANCE!

D is for dance, dance, dance.

Also in this form.

And D is for other things as well….

Magical words that begin with D

Deciding. Like what Bryan says: “You don’t have to make any decisions here, you just honor the decisions your body has already made…”

Or destruction and disintegration. In the Shaivite sense of undoing to allow for new things to emerge….

Or disguise. It’s costumes! For spies!

Beautiful qualities that begin with D

Drawing. Like art, but also like water.
Dwelling. Verb and noun. Also: things that are homes inside of homes….
Dedication. Extra-appropriate because Hannukah is next week and Hannukah means dedication.

So many qualities. And so many memories.

D is for done.

D is for the dance I used to teach. D is for all the dances I have done and all the dancing I will do. D is for crossing distances.

D is for what has died, ended, reconfigured. And D is for drawing and defining new paths. D is for all the things that are dormant, slowly coming into form.

Thank you, letter D. I am looking forward to whatever [destinations and delights] this week brings. Willing to be surprised.

May it be so! And come play with me.

If you want to whisper words or sound effects that start with D, go for it. If you want to share in any of qualities, you can. They work like the salves in the Friday Chicken: just take some, there is always more.

If you want to throw some superpowers into the pot for Rally, that is welcome.

Waving from the Playground! Whispering loving spells that begin with D, for myself, and for anyone who wants…

The Fluent Self