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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Thing 1: Who’s keeping track of special ops?

Here’s what I want:

I’ve noticed I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and panicky over the past few days.

My two busiest monsters (The Mssrs. TOO MANY THINGS and NOT ENOUGH TIME) are both working overtime and tag-teaming each other.

I sat with them and we played a few rounds of what’s true and what’s also true. We learned that yes, it’s true that the next three weeks have a hell of a lot of things that need doing. This gave us some information on how to set things up differently next year.

And when we got to the part about also true, it became clear that none of the things are very difficult or time-consuming. And we have a method: naming the mission and setting it up, with super secret spy code.

But then they worry about who will keep track of all the missions?!

The qualities inside of the want:

Clarity. Order. Calm. Spaciousness. Congruence. Harmony. Clear seeing. Truth. Radiance. Resilience. Sustainability. Flow.

And the superpower of being my own control tower.

Ways this might work:

I can go to the Floop and list out all the operations. And then find out what their secret names, costumes and attributes are.

Once I’ve sorted them out, they can go into Paperless, the app that I want to marry.

I’m playing with…

Drinking tea. Believing. Letting things go.

Thing 2: Operation DOLPHINS.

Here’s what I want:

Okay, this one is a metaphor and a proxy and a fractal flower, so just go with this.

I am the Director of the world’s premier Dolphin Adoption Agency.

And I have been considering closing the agency even though I love the dolphins and I love that people want to adopt dolphins. It’s just way too much work and also sometimes people abandon the dolphins and then I feel sad and despondent.

So I have been interviewing myself: talking to the version of me who excels at this job and is thrilled to be doing it.

This week I’d like to quietly and lovingly re-open the doors of the Dolphin Adoption Agency, with a warm heart and a steady smile. And to do it in a way that feels right for me. Because a happy Director is, it turns out, vital to a thriving agency.

The qualities inside of the want:

Freedom. Orchestration. Peacefulness. Innovation. Newness. Sustenance. Flow. Sovereignty. Freedom. Boundaries. Responsibility. Lightness. Love.

And the (hilarious) superpower of remembering that the most important thing about running an Agency is the quality of AGENCY.

Ways this might work:

Get more advice from me-the-Director.

Take it to the cafe.

I’m playing with…

Letting this be easier than I think it will be.

Letting the Floop help.

Thing 3: Operation MILLINER

Here’s what I want:

Operation Milliner! I have a gigantic editing project and I am so very much not in the mood. So I want to either get in the mood or I want it to be easy. What do I know about the op?

  • Color: Gold
  • Superpower: Always looking good in hats means…. (find out!)
  • Costume: all the hats, of course!
  • Code within code: M.I.L.L.I.N.E.R.
  • Contact: Brigitte can make the drop in Bonn. Or Ulf.

MILLINER also stands for: Malleability. Immersion. Lusciousness. Laughter. Inspiration. Newness. Effortless. Radiance.

The compass will begin North at M and goes clockwise and then counterclockwise: “Malleability immerses in luscious laughter, inspired by newness and effortlessly radiating. Malleability radiates effortless newness, inspiring laughter and lusciousness, immersed in malleability.”

Elements of the operation include:
(1) Setting.
(2) Conducting in and conducting out. .

The qualities inside of the want:

Creativity. Inspiration. Playfulness.

The superpower of letting things change shape easily.

Ways this might work:

At the Playground. With flowers. More flowers!

I’m playing with…

There is a dress…

Noticings about the things I want this week…

They have to do with getting things in order, finding rhythms internal and external. And they require a playful approach, because otherwise I get overwhelmed. And if I’m not enjoying myself, how can I be the director of the world’s foremost dolphin adoption agency? See?

Bonus wishes, please!

Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

  • Coloring. Like this.
  • Helena.
  • Operation STOCKING.
  • Operation 6 Sundays
  • A solemn promise about next December.
  • Revue.
  • Goodbye, goodbye, 2012.
  • A ritual, made new.
  • Goodbye, goodbye, 2012.
  • Doorways and doorways.
  • Let there be dancing.
  • Steadiness and grace

I’m playing with…

A pot full of harmony.

Smiling all the smiles.

Yoga nidra.

Staying committed to playfulness and vitality when I can, to presence and breathing when I can’t.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

Wow. So Operation CAKEWALK was a smashing success. Also I forgot to give credit to Kyle for the name, which was part of what made it such a great operation to begin with. I loved it.

Operation Four on the Floor was much more challenging than expected. BUT. I wrote a forty page ebook. So that was pretty great.

And I made huge progress on the mezuzot, because of something that happens every year that I always forget about.

The bonus wishes worked well too. Replanting a few of them for more of the same. Yay.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.


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