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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

This week I am being a mermaid who is also a dragon.

And — this is funny, but probably just to me! — I am working with the quality of simplicity.

In case you think that being a mermaid who is also a dragon is not especially simple, let me assure you that it is. For me. Today.

Thing 1: Wanted. Small toys and figurines of knights!

Here’s what I want:

I am practicing being a dragon because it helps me remember to give myself iron. And I eat knights because knights wear iron.

You’d think that this makes me the worst vegetarian in the world, but somehow it doesn’t.

I am a dragon and I eat knights and I consume their power of COURAGE and DEDICATION and FIERCENESS.

And I want little toys or figurines of knights to put on the window sill above the kitchen sink and remind me that it is time to ingest some more iron into my lovely and temporarily-depleted iron-craving body.

[IMPORTANT REQUEST. I want to make clear that I am *not* asking for more ways to get iron. This is has stuff attached for me. Thank you!]

Ways this might work:

Maybe I will find some. In a toy shop. Or through some other useful discovery.

Maybe some of you have something like this at home and you would like to send me a knight as a clew, that would be marvelous.

And then when I am done with my iron rituals, I will bring them to the Playground at Stompopolis where everyone can play with them.

If you happen to be a magical someone who has knights for me, I can be reached by way of the following address:

Havi Brooks
c/o The Fluent Self Inc
1526 NE Alberta St #218
Portland, OR 97211
United States

I’m playing with…

Feeling joyful and appreciative.

Roaring and making dragon sounds.

Remembering that even things I do not like can become playful.

Thing 2: The Two Day of Logistics.

Here’s what I want:

I have a bit of a messy week happening.

There are visitors. There are surprise visitors. There is a business rendezvous. There are pieces that need One More Next Step and pieces that need periods of undivided attention.

There is prep work and cleaning up, entry and exit.

Here is what I want: Let it be easy.

Or at least, let it be simple.

Ways this might work:

I could do shiva nata on it and then all of a sudden a plan could form itself.

I could map out a Plan A and a Plan B.

Another option: I could decide that I’m not going to worry about this and somehow it is all going to just work.

The monsters would like to point out that the last time we experimented with the above approach was an Unprecented Disaster. However, it is also possible that Now Is Not Like Then, so I will investigate that.

I’m playing with…

Figuring out which parts are the absolutely-absolutely most important and seeing what I can drop.

Asking how I want to feel, and making my decisions based on that.

No matter what comes up, my body comes first. That means sleep and yoga and dancing get priority over everything else.

Thing 3: Simplicity: the crayon approach.-

Here’s what I want:

Simplicity. Simplicity. More simplicity.

There are way too many things in my life that I am insisting on making way too hard.

I want to stop trying to figure out the What If This Happens Back-Up Contingency And Will This Work Ten Years From Now systems and ask how I would approach these things if all I had to work with were crayons and paper.

Ways this might work:

Solving for X. If X is simplicity, what are all the tools I already have to get closer to simplicity?

Looking for the holes. What are the steps that can be removed? What are the shortcuts?

Again, the thing that will help with this is shiva nata.

I’m playing with…

Mapping out patterns.

Thing 4: perfect simple solutions

Here’s what I want:

For so many things!

There is an unsovereign ask that needs attention, there is the new Entry system for Stompy Mice, there are the 28 Days of Entry for the new thing that is coming.

I need these things to resolve themselves, quickly and elegantly.

Ways this might work:

Interviewing Harmony (that’s slightly future me) to find out what she knows about this.

I suspect a lot.

Processing on the Floop.

I’m playing with…

Giving myself a lot of space. This has been an incredibly rough year for me, I have a lot going on, it makes sense that these situations would be hard to deal with.

There is time. It doesn’t feel like there is time, but I am going to trust that these things will begin to work themselves out.

And of course: fractal flowers. That always helps.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted to welcome 5773, and that happened beautifully at the beach. So happy about that.

Then I wanted to play with the Anthology of What Havi Wants, and nothing yet. But I have been thinking about it a lot. So I’m going to let this percolate some more and check back in. Re-planted!

I asked about a possible new home for the Spunky Monkey, my favorite cafe. And I haven’t been there this week so I will have to check in on that.

Next I wanted to tell you about Richard’s amazing header special, and I don’t know about that either but I know that everyone who has done it absolutely LOVED the results. Obviously. He’s amazing.

There was an ask about moving triggers and other sources of friction, and I’m still working on that. Two are gone, and this is good.

And I wanted steps for Ms. Bell and I still want them. It looks like this one has some STUFF around it, so I am going to need to process some old pain before I can examine this again. That might be related to this week’s perfect simple solutions.

In fact, I suspect that this new superpower of Simplicity, once I get to know it better, will help with moving all of this forward.

Playful playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like.

Here or on your own or in your head. It’s all fine. Or call silent retreat!

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

If you’re looking for suggestions or heart-sighs or anything else related to your wish, you will need to ask for that because our default mode is giving each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We make space for people’s wishes.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.


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