very personal adsPersonal ads. They’re … personal! Very.

So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my weekly ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!

Oh, curse you, Daylight Savings Time! My old nemesis has returned once again.

But I’m here! So.

What do we gwish for this week? Or at all?

I have no idea. Let’s find out.

Thing 1: PLUM!

Here’s what I want:

Made lots of progress this past week on the Playground User Manual, and yes, I’m pronouncing it plum, as suggested, because it makes me giggle every single time.

Twenty one pages so far.

And I’ve realized that I’d really like it to be a collaborative effort. To come together at the Playground during the magical events that happen there.

Ways this could work:

I’m thinking that maybe this week at Rally (Rally!), some or all of us could add a page here and there.

May also put out an ask to past Rallions and other lovely people who have come playgrounding with me.

Maybe this will also be the push to help me finish the new Playground website too…

Other than that?

I don’t know. But I would like this to be a joy-filled, fun, colorful collaboration, and for it to come together gracefully and easily.

My commitment.

To see what happens when I don’t try to be in charge of everything but just set the culture for it.

To talk to the parts of me who get freaked out about that and to be curious about what would help them get on board with this.

To say the word PLUM a lot. Plumplumplumplumplumplum. Not plumb, though. No. That would be wrong.

Thing 2: Other binder-ey things…

Here’s what I want:

It’s weird because it used to be that everything in my business was online.

The ship’s log where my pirate crew shares all the important ship-sailing information: in the cloud.

Online courses, ebooks, holding Drunk Pirate Council with the help of a chat room.

Now we have the Playground — a real-life center where this stuff happens. And the Toy Shop at the Playground where we sell things.

And I have binders. Or the Anthologies, as I call them. Because binders remind me of school so I asked metaphor mouse to provide translation services.

Anyway. The anthologies are all kind of half-working. And I’d really like to get them in working order so that I can put them to good use.

Ways this could work:

During the Rally, of course. That would be a marvelous thing to work on.

Or I might have a shivanautical moment of bing that would tell me how best to structure them.

Or the right order could just emerge.

My commitment.

To be curious, loving, inquisitive and playful with this.

To stay receptive to new ways of ordering things.

To notice when I’m starting to turn this into a Big, Stressful, Important Project, which will then result in avoiding the hell out of it, and to try not to do that.

That is, to sweetly interrupt the pattern and find out what I want and need instead.

Thing 3: Closings.

Here’s what I want:

There are some doors that need to be closed, some things I am done with.

Never been very good at endings.

But now is the time.

Ways this could work:

A giant permission slip to have this be as awkward as it needs to be.

I don’t need to try to make this smooth or pretty or anything.

Just to be done and have the ending there.

My commitment.

To be curious about my relationship with endings.

To ask questions.

To feel what I feel and not have to like any of it.

Thing 4: A plan for the mysterious holiday away.

Here’s what I want:

Remember last year when I said that this year I was going to schedule in a holiday each quarter plus regular days off so that I wouldn’t go batty and have to be hauled away on Emergency Vacation?

Well, I did.

What a great plan. Which I totally ignored.

“Hi, days on my calendar that claim to be vacation days.” The fact that I have said this multiple times since January seems to indicate a problem.

Right. So that didn’t work. Trying something else.

In the meantime, I do have a small holiday coming up and I am determined to actually run away in some shape or form. But I do not as yet have plans. And it seems like, weirdly, without planning for this, it might not happen.

Ways this could work:

I’m going to flail on this and use whatever comes out of a whirlwind of Shiva Nata to give me some direction.

I will also ask slightly future me, who knows about these things, to share some information.

And I will ask for a small miracle.

My commitment.

To do the work of figuring out what I want, before I despair that it’s impossible.

And once I know what I want, to find a way to connect to the essence or the qualities of that want.

To play. And then to play some more.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

As always, I seem to have completely forgotten what I asked for the week before.

I wanted courage and I got it. Hooray!

Then there was some stuff about defining emergencies for the Book of Me. Which I did not do. But I added huge amounts of other information to the book this week, so something is moving there.

Then I wanted prep for the March Rally, which definitely happened, and gave birth to all sorts of good things.

And I wanted to gwish for outlandish birthday gwishes. And while they may not have been so completely outlandish, writing about them was really fun and inspiring.

A good week, all in all.

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

Stuff I’d rather not have:

  • The word “manifest”.
  • To be told how I should be asking for things.
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given unsolicited advice.

Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! I’m so happy to have people doing this with me.

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