very personal ads

I write a Very Personal Ad (or a vision of possibility & anticipation) each week to practice wanting, listening, getting clear on my desires

the point isn’t getting my wish (though cool things have emerged from wishing), it’s learning about my relationship with wanting, accessing the qualities

wanting can be hard, it is easy to feel conflicted about it, and the reasons for that make this a surprisingly subversive practice…

this is the 378th week of wishing, come play!

a list of wishes

  • I want to skip stones to learn what I know about making space delicious. What would be delicious business space for me? I mean, I used to own an imaginary chocolate shop, and I ran two decidedly non-imaginary retreat centers, which embodied delicious space, and I used to be a yoga teacher once upon a time, which is all about delicious internal space. Surely I can find an answer…
  • new job: what is it and when does it begin?
  • what is the best (let best = simple, immediate, clear, doable) solution for the building fund?
  • what is here for me by the bay? / what is here for me on-and-down the road?
  • what would tara do (the guest star on Leverage) and what does it mean to be a guest star, in all senses of the word star and guest?
  • in 23 weeks which is a significant amount of weeks for me, we will arrive at 400 wishes, 450 chickens, 12 years of this business, and my 40th birthday: by the time we get there, I need to either transform/reconfigure this space into something sustainable that is a fair thing to model to the world, or let it go with a loving and thankful heart and find out what is next for me
  • I don’t need to know what is next, but I want a star to steer towards, right now I know that I care a lot about my legacy, I care about the work of self-fluency and very interior design, I care a lot about the community, and I am not willing to model to the world something that doesn’t work.
  • a very good rabbit hole for me right now is the life of Norma Kamali, I would like to investigate this more!
  • it isn’t fair to the clandestine campers if movie hour is canceled because Timmy threw a rock through the window, but also circumstances mean there’s no way to watch the movie, so on behalf of the camp director I am requesting a very fun and playful solution to this, something so good that no one minds about not having movie hour, like maybe there are cupcakes instead or an extra long and luscious nap time, we are receptive to many beautiful ways this could work out to everyone’s benefit!
  • more balance play / think like a dancer / I don’t need to tell the story
  • clues to investigate: trust the diamond / solved by being spanish / dipper and crown / letting it be light
oh wow what beautiful wishes!


everything that happened in September
(the month of INTENTION and I Am So Very Clear)
brought me here, both to this new clarity about my yes,

now I am ready to learn about my center
and possibly also the center that houses my business
as I investigate delicious space

may it be so!

last week’s wishes

last-week-me wished a wish called welcome to center
and it brought me here
this was a good wish for me

thank you, me who wished

invitation: come play with me…

you are invited to share this post and to share many !!!!!! about what is here,
or share appreciation or anything sparked for you while reading

deposit wishes, gwishes, superpowers, qualities, ingredients, intel, possibly in code

safe space for creative exploration asks us to let go of care-taking and advice-giving

wishes are never late because whenever you wish is the right time for wishing

here’s how we meet each other’s wishes: oh, wow what beautiful wishes

The Fluent Self