Just sayin’.
.-= Gina´s last post … When Worlds Collide =-.

Join my crusade against the Evil Leaf Blower.

KTHXBAI.

Oh – and you know the weirdest thing? Raking is faster! It’s faster!!!!!

That said, in the VERY GOOD last week I include the arrival of my Shiva Nata DVD and some great e-mail from Marissa :-)

Meanwhile, this -

I’m pretty sure I didn’t accidentally blurt out anything related to potentially dangerous topics (climate change, queer culture, songs we used to sing at socialist summer camp, our dreamboat president), so phew.

- and this -

Hubby chooses to raw fest some punk

- gave me serious belly-laughs, of which the more the merrier!

Happy Hannukah :-)
.-= Lean Ni Chuilleanain (@leannich)´s last post … October and November Got Away =-.

+ Went to my favorite client’s x-mess party and got showered with praise from so many people it made me blush. Yes, I know that they were probably drunk, but it was nice to hear that people appreciate my work. And half of them now work for other potential clients, so YAY for the SF way of spreading talent and working with people you actually LIKE and enjoy having drinks with.
.-= Casey´s last post … Dave’s Top Ten Rules of Business =-.

The hard:
– After having an intense day of biggifying, I didn’t have a single hour to myself for five days. Five days of not processing what I’d learned, not meditating, and not Shivaing. It was really hard.
– Getting even more bills from hospitals and collection agencies. Knowing that I’m going to need to regroup at least four times tomorrow just to get through the four calls I need to make. Ugh.
– Older cat (15) started limping pretty badly, so I took him to the vet which cost a bunch of money I don’t already have. But knowing that it’s not serious and he will get better is worth that money.
– Having so many ideas swirling around in my head and not being able to focus on just one to get it done. Which, I guess, is actually kind of good because they’re there – I just need to commit to one and follow it to it’s conclusion.

The good:
+ the Sacramento Biggification Day workshop was awesome and wonderful and overwhelming and a lot to process. But I’d do it again in a heartbeat because, just WOW.
+ After five days of not-processing after the workshop, I asked Dave (the Hippie Husband) for an evening to myself. He vanished into the night and I got some time to do what I needed. YAY for the power of the Ask.
+ The cat will be OK.
+ The snow is back and we have our shared-ski-cabin again. Returning to our hideaway in the woods is a wonderful feeling, filled with cocoa, softly falling snow, and quiet evenings under a blanket. It’s so peaceful there, I just love it.
+ Ideas, ideas, ideas! Tons of them. I blame the Biggification workshop and Havi and all the wonderful gals there.
.-= Casey´s last post … Dave’s Top Ten Rules of Business =-.

Hugs for all.

The hard:

Well, after coming to terms with being laid off last week, Saturday morning I took my Dora-kitty in to the vet for what we thought was a lingering cold – turns out she was in kidney failure. In to the emergency hospital with her for fluids all weekend.

Missed my stitch-in with my bellydance troupe that evening because of it. :(

Trying to get Dora to eat all week after she got to come home on Monday.

They STILL don’t know why my young, healthy cat got sick, but they think it’s related to the episode that happened while I was at Havi’s retreat in Aug. :(

Haven’t shivanata’d at all this week, which is probably adding to my discombobulation.

Husband’s been called in to work at 3:30a.m. pretty regularly this week. Nothing like the phone ringing in the middle of the night to help your insomnia…

My Etsy shop was hit by an etsy shop bug. :(

The good:

My wonderful, amazing paladin of a husband (yes, THAT Evil Overlord), while trying to keep himself cheered up, ran Kitty-Surprise (http://bit.ly/61gv27) over and over, which makes me smile, too. :)

Dora is finally eating again, and I’m feeling like a short-order cook, trying to figure out what she will eat at any particular time!

My Etsy shop is up and working again, and I’ve got 8 new chatelaines/flash drive/id lanyards posted. And some good feedback on them.

Yesterday I finished making another chatelaine/necklace with matching earrings. Needs photographed and posted. But it’s done.

I’m over 1/2 done with the model for the Snowflake mat.

Havi, thanks so much for the chicken. It helps knowing I’m not alone with the Hard, even when I can’t post. :)
.-= Romilly´s last post … Creating Artwork =-.

God, I love Fridays even when they’re over. Since some people (ahem, Casey) will still be chickening it up through Sunday or Monday, I also like knowing that the loooooong chicken totally works.

Anyway, these are so great to read. I adore you all. Thanks for the good wishes and the fist-shaking.

Hugs for all the hard and excited happiness for all the good. And hooray for ridiculous but satisfying rituals.

The hard

It’s been a bit tough. Unexpected stuck came up around my Mum. More urghh around getting things wrong and hurting people by mistake, including Mum.
My sweet man who I don’t want to hurt and yet…human frailities and *uck ups. Hmmm.
People got over me throwing shoes in the end. But I felt overwhelmed with shame. Felt really sick and unworthy of anything at all. All this was a bit of a shock.
Had a couple of days of beating up on my beauty but imperfect self but I kept naming it, looking at it with some heart smart Haviness and it shifted really very quickly and with ease too.
So again the hard turned out to be the good to – as @AndrewLighthouse said so much more succintly than I seem able to!

No paid work this week. More scary silly letters re bills.

Then! Offered and accepted paid work running over this weekend which would at least cover this week’s bills. Simply ridiculous hours, with what looks like the potential to go in for a 16 hour shift having completed a previous one with 3 hours sleep between the two. Simply ridiculous and yet I said yes. The bills, the need for roof over head, that old thing.

Wondering about whether I should be finding out about, I don’t know, Dana’s business (even though I’m in London), getting a loan, seeing if there is some way that I can painlessly make money quickly and nowwww! Tried so many things from my current frame of reference and I don’t seem to shift things any further. Then Naomi talks about being able to create income via the net painlessly.

But..ohhh…all in good time. Round and round I go, on a loop. I would love to get of the financial lack loop. I’d like a very good idea around this to present itself to me with ease and heart and for me to get it.

That said I am up for permanent work in an office. I’m not totally grumbly about that since that saves losing the roof over head scenario. Yeyyyy.

But really? I would love a helper to present themself to me and say look you can do this and earn some money easily, with dignity, looook, over here, it would suit your love of life and people and give you some space too to develop your creative biz ideas and enjoy life! Hmph.

Dreaming of flying pigs and being rescued but the other way isn’t working so…I’m open to this way.

The Good

Lots and lots.
Skimming the milk from the fat about the hard. Issues with my Mum (growing up and seperating at hmm hmmm 36) and understanding why this conflict makes me go into self disgust mode.

Getting that I still need to create more boundaries around people and there stuff, even if they are reacting to My Stuff and especially if it’s people I have a long history with. I am allowed to look after myself no matter what anyone says. I just am.

Some ah ha moment in therapy around trigger-y stuff with my love. It was a release to ‘get’ why I felt so suffocated and defensive around him with certain issues.

Did a great 2nd interview, whether or not I get the job, whether or not it meets my criteria for happiness, whether or not I can access ‘enough’ gratitude! I did a great interview. Well done you!

The Hard:
- Freelance thing, aka The Day Job, took over my life this week. Ah, the agony. It needs its own Specialized Dammit List. Will do that today.
- With all my attention on the Day Job silliness, I neglected my health/self-care. Now I’ve got civil unrest going on all over my body. I mean crazy protests with yelling and signs and megaphones and everything, possible military coup in the making. We’ll be in peace talks all weekend. I guess I had it coming.
- Bureaucracy managed to dash my hopes on two separate occasions this week! Argh (shaking fist)! Stupid bureaucracy. You’re even hard to spell.

The Good but possibly bizarre:
- The Hard made me reflect on the Day Job and why I get into these needlessly stressful situations. Realized that I’m not just clinging to this job for the money and definitely not for the glory. Whoa.
- I got this DVD in the mail and it made me flail around all week. And I like the flailing!
- Dancing around the house – I mean, doing housework, to revival tiki music. Seriously, try it!
- Modern medicine. I try to stay away from it but oh, sometimes it just saves the day. And my doctor is also the bomb.

Wishing you all a week without shoe-throwing, headaches, cold weather woes, etc. and instead, plenty of roses.