@Heidi *Thank you*

@Havi Like GirlPie, it is great that you’ve created such a soothing place where we can all be ourselves and share honestly like this. Wonderful.

P.S. I mentioned this in another comment that I expect only Havi will see. I did email Kelly in a very weird rambly way, acknowledging that I doubted we could work together. It was a stream of consciousness email. I’ve been so bored of writing the stiff query letters you send out to agents I wanted to do something new. She got back to me! And now I have lots of links with help for marketing Amnar. Fabulous too!

Joely Blacks last blog post..How much can you really know about yourself if you’ve never been in a fight?

@Monica – Oh, hooray. I’m thrilled to introduce you to Kelly then. Right on.

@Joely – Mz GirlPie is right, of course, as always. Of course you’re a writer. You love words and love communicating, and channel inspiration. No one would ever doubt your writer-ness but you.

@Heidi – thanks for all the love you’re spreading here. If I can speak for everyone (can I?) we all totally appreciate it!

Not just because I have been thinking and talking all weekend about how I wanted to do something differently since this recession thingy has left me a little unemployed. And then I read this blog today about a person who has work! Real work!

And it gives me hope. Maybe she’ll pick me and I’ll have an income stream, or maybe I’ll just start talking to people locally about picking up writing projects for them….

Or maybe I’ll post a job wanted ad of my own and see what kind of results I get.

Either way, I love, love, love this blog.

Havi- you and Selma rock my world.

Monicas last blog post..I carry your heart with me

As GirlPie said: “Are too”! And, to borrow another childhood quip: “Takes one to know one!” Mirror is right.

thxoxoxo for voicing parts of me this morning. Sending love all around to all you lovers of word and world. That would be, apparently, all of us.

Heidi Fischbachs last blog post..That’s plenty

@Havi — LOVE that you create a place where people can feel safe pain and breathe hidden words and confess know-better doubts to nodding friends they’ve never met…thanks.

And thank you, Joely. But the next time you doubt you’re a writer, read your comment aloud and you’ll see what we see. Are too.

I looked at it and thought “Oh, another bonk from the universe.” Money and writing. Being a writer who makes money doing what she loves.

I fit the bill, in many ways except that I don’t copywrite. I try to come up with interesting rational reasons. I’m in the UK. I’m also a registered business which means I have to charge her VAT and there are complications. It would be an exchange between businesses. Accountant has to get involved.

Real reason. Too damned scared. All my buttons are pushed in one horrendous moment not unlike the Phantom of the Opera having a *headdesk* moment on the organ in the middle of some dramatic piece. It’s Toccata and Fugue over here.

I’m not a writer, I think. I can’t do that. That’s really, literally what I thought. I’m not a writer. And I crawl away and hide.

I do manage to think in tiny bursts about approaching her but suddenly I have no words. How do I say I breathe words when everybody else is saying it so much better than me? When they’re all so much stronger and better than me? I can’t think of anything clever or witty to write back.

This might sound like wailing and gnashing of teeth. It’s curious. I can see emerging at last a voice to the holding-back I’ve been doing for so long. It’s amazing how you get things thrown in your face that help you look at yourself. The presentation of a mirror.

Joely Blacks last blog post..Where do you have your best revelations?

What I love is the idea of a personal ad as an exercise in what you really want and what you can give. It really clarifies things. Even the act of doing it or considering doing it brings up more of the Stuff to be dealt with.

Joely Blacks last blog post..Where do you have your best revelations?

And then, just because I amuse myself far too easily and oddly sometimes, I also thought that spoof personal ads might be fun…” Woman, running out of eggs but afraid of dying alone and without a family of her own, desperately seeks security at all costs and to be taken care of forever. Are you a man without a life of his own who will never ever leave…?” OMG. Horror of hilarious horrors.

(This probably came in relation to my having a look-see at some very small-ifying beliefs I sometimes hold about not having enough… seeing how living from that place makes me grip onto things and people… )

Signing off, for now alone, thank you very much ;) and noticing life ain’t so bad after all.

thxoxoxo

Heidi Fischbachs last blog post..That’s plenty

People have been twittering and DM-ing and emailing me about this AND about their own personal ads. Very exciting.

And the latest from Copylicious Kelly is that she’s already heard from 22 of you just this afternoon. That is ridiculously awesome. And I am most pleased!

Also thanks @Peter for giving me my first belly-laugh of the day. Nice.