very personal adsPersonal ads! They’re … personal! Very.

So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my Sunday ritual for clarity and remembering and stuff like that. Yay, ritual!

Let’s dooo eeeet.

Thing 1: Remembering what I already know, again.

Here’s what I want:

I managed to put myself in a mini-tizzy last week trying to figure out what to focus on in my own writing during the fabulous Writer’s Retreat I’m teaching at in Taos.

After going back and forth between six different (and equally compelling) options, I did some Dance of Shiva on it, which delivered the following mini-epiphany:

This week isn’t for the writing. It’s for learning about my relationship to the writing.

So. Instead of working on the book, I’m going to be writing love letters to the book. Having monster conversations. Using my own techniques and documenting them.

For the book, yeah.

But with the intention not of writing it, but of finding out more about my relationship with it.

And what I want is to remember this.

Ways this could work:

I can leave myself little notes.

Make this the intention of my daily shivanautical wackiness.

I can start each day’s writing by consciously choosing one technique that I want to play with. Like, what happens if I bring in Metaphor Mouse to learn more about different aspects of how I interact with writing?)

Or maybe it can just happen.

My commitment.

To do whatever needs doing to release some of that pressure to hurry up and create something meaningful right this second while you have a chance.

To be curious and receptive and inquisitive.

To ask smart questions.

To not take myself or any of this too seriously. Play! We will play!

To walk the labyrinth with Selma.

Thing 2: Maintaining space.

Here’s what I want:

I know about my tendency to overdo. And especially to over-give.

And it’s time to (sweetly) mess around with that pattern and see what moves.

Since I’ll be teaching all week, this is a good test environment to practice in.

Ways this could work:

Reminding myself that it’s time. I’m ready to get better at scooping out time and space for myself. On purpose. As a way of being.

And letting that be not only legitimate, but vital.

Clearly this calls for more Shiva Nata. And some talking to walls.

My commitment.

To pay attention. To notice things.

To not be impressed by the fact that yeah, this is still an issue.

To breathe breathe breathe.

To write about what I learn.

Thing 3: the Rally!

Here’s what I want:

Okay. So I still really want a Rally.

And haven’t had much time for this.

So. I’m going to try to throw together a first run version. Of the Rally.

A little messy, a little casual, a little hilarious .

Invite some people. Rally it up. See what happens.

Like a pre-rally rally. A taster rally. A starter rally. I don’t know.

And then we can expand it into something bigger and more formal.

Ways this could work:

No idea.

But I’m going to write about this and something will happen.

My commitment.

To stay receptive to different creative, fun, lighthearted, playful ways that this could be awesome.

To practice the things I’m already practicing.

To invent some new rally-related rituals.

To have the First Mate make inquiries about possible fabulous schwag.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I asked for perfect simple solutions for the computer-in-a-coma problem. And it was good.

My ancient iBook miraculously hung in there (I think I can I think I can!) and was able to mostly work. The Apple people fixed my laptop. We got through five days of stressfulness and nothing fell apart. Including me. So yay.

Then I wanted support with the enormous variety of things that needed to fall into place, and that also worked better than expected/hoped for.

A lot also didn’t get done, but there was more ease than I’d thought possible. And I had some outrageously great Shivanautical epiphanies. Nice.

And I had an ask about simplicity and elegance that is still … percolating. I think I need to ask this one again when I know a little more about this. Very interesting, in the mean time.

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

What I’d rather not have:

  • The word “manifest”.
  • Shoulds. As in, “You should be doing it like this” or “That’s not the right way to ask for things — instead it should be like x, y and z”
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given advices.

Wishing love and good things for your Very Personal Ads! So glad for everyone doing this with me.