* I’d like some inner strength and some serious bravery to keep writing this v.p.a. Never done one of these before.

* I’d love some clarity about what it is that I truly need right now and to be okay asking for it.

* I just read one of your posts, Havi, about the people in your life who believed in you no matter what. *Gigantic heart swells* I love stories like that. I was nearly brought to tears by the part of your post where you talked about how your gentlemen friend believed in you and your business *no matter what*. I would very much like some of those, please. Or I would like the World to shine on the people in my life who are already providing unconditional support and encouragement so that I can see it.

* Any methods for getting songs out of your head. It’s been five days. Five days of waking up and going to bed and eating and showering and emailing with THAT SONG running in the background of my brain. And it hurts. And it won’t go away.

* The accompanying peace that comes with strength, bravery, clarity, support, and a more quiet mind.

*Thank you*

What I’m so done with:

Devil’s advocates
Paralyzing perfectionism

My commitment:
To shine the light on myself and my gifts. To continue to be the person who genuinely cares about other people and their paths, but who also greatly values herself and pays attention to her own needs.

@Mark – wow. Huge realization. That totally makes sense.

And I just want to say that I am sitting with you in the hard. Because I absolutely get that you would be feeling really vulnerable and frustrated and upset when you do your part in something and the other person leaves you hanging.

Good luck figuring out what your ask is around this.

–> Ignore if this is too much like “advice”…
My guess is that it’s going to involve stuff “in the hard” (how is this a design problem? what systems and structures might ensure that this can’t happen?) as well as a lot of stuff “in the soft” (what do I need to feel safe? what part of me needs acknowledgment?)

Soup sounds good, though.

Sending you all so much love for your ads.

Sometimes I get Stuck because: I get ripped off. It’s the really sweet, stable client at a good company who decides to put my invoice on perpetual hold. The friend I busted my chops for who doesn’t come through when it’s their turn. Stuff like that.

It triggers Stuckness because, I guess, not getting a fair exchange is a huge demotivator. “If I’m going to work, or not work, and not get paid either way,” the logic goes, “Why work?” Which is of course the path to getting nothing done.

But I found a cool way out of the pattern: cooking.

Cooking never rips you off. If you use the right ingredients and follow the recipe properly, you’ll get something fairly decent and edible in the end. I made some delicious (although slightly soggy) sweet potato pie a week ago, and burn-your-stomach-lining hot pepper soup a couple of days ago, and will do something lovely with beets and walnuts tonight.

And you know what? I’m unstuck, and I’m getting lots of yummy food in the bargain.

Okay, time to work some more. Then soup.
.-= Mark W. “Extra Crispy” Schumann´s last post … Programming with Access? Know this about JOIN. =-.

How it could happen?
The change of place could bring it about despite the fact that we will be in 5 different places within 8 days. I could get lots of fresh air everyday and do fit in some meditation.

My commitment?
To take every day as it comes and enjoy it. Not to worry about money matters. To look after myself and my needs also while staying at friends’ and relatives’ places.

Update on past ads:
I sold two more pieces from my Etsy, which will help with the food/bills. Yay!

Working in the studio went incredibly easy on the days I asked for help with that.

Still ISO the best way to license my work. And making more work in the interim.

This week, what I want:

More time in the studio.

How this could happen:
I could make it a priority. This isn’t just some “lazy” effort, it is helping to support my family. And the work makes people smile. Making it makes me smile. Win/win.

My commitment:
To bring love. To be gentle with my stuck. To trust the process.
.-= Andi´s last post … Taking the Leap =-.

This week, I am advertising for focus and clarity.

What I want
To stop whirling and bouncing between all the OMGINCREDIBLYURGENTWHYHAVEN’TYOUDONETHISALREADY tasks in my head, each of which hurls abuse and screams reproaches at me whenever I swing near enough to hear. Instead, to have the clarity to recognise my actual most important immediate goals, and the focus to tackle them.

How it could happen
* I could experience some kind of internal shift. I don’t know how better to describe that, but I have a feeling it’s not far off, if I could just reach it.
* I could have a stroke of luck that helped me get one of the big screaming tasks done, and that could turn out to be unexpectedly crucial to the bigger picture, which would give me confidence to do more, in a domino effect stylee.
* Something could happen on the sleep/rest front (subject of previous Personal Ads; not much progress to report), which would dissipate the mental haze I live in for long enough to show me what I should be paying attention to.
* Some other way. I’m not fussy.

What I don’t want
To live like this for the rest of my life.

My commitment
To seize the opportunities presented.
.-= Lean Ni Chuilleanain´s last post … Sunday Stash, no. 4 =-.

Update on mine:
I’ve made some progress on the design itself – mainly i narrowed down colorscheme and stuff. It’s going slow but there’s progress. I nearly completly lost the connection to the now, though. Head Cold + Need to be distracted = No Wu Wei for me last week. Yeugh.

Want:
I need to stop putting on weight, please! I’m already in “causing illness” territory and I’m still growing heavier. But hormone and healthwise I’m okay, so it’s not that. Mainly I’m just eating to much. But nothing I did to so far (and I’ve been struggling with YEARS) to deal with this. I need help.

How to:
Maybe I could figure out how to be hungry all the time. Maybe I could find out and deal with the reasons behing my constant over-eating. Or something happens that gives me a idea. I might stumble about something that works.

My commitment:
I’ll do 30 min Sport each day. I keep an open mind. I’ll do my best to learn the lessons that are in this situation.
.-= Carina (@chalcara)´s last post … Free Fonts! =-.

Off to Dance …
.-= Bullwinkle´s last post … Wildlife =-.