These are all completely awesome.

I love reading everyone’s ads. It is completely soothing and inspiring for me. Yay. Thank you for being a part of this with me. Amazing.

No, I don’t mind sharing, go right ahead! I’m glad you found this concept helpful. :D
.-= Carina´s last blog ..Surrealistic Gardens (Cautions: Contains Great Photos) =-.

Update on my last Ad: I did get courage to have a tough conversation and I do have calm surrounding the outcome of it, and maybe even a twinge of excitement. Doing things in the name of sovereignty and wellness has kept me at an even keel moving through this really hard stuff.

This weeks ad:

What I want- to find the right home for me for the next 2 years. I want it to be a comfortable place for me, a place I can have private space to create art and practice shiva nata without fear of being watched/judged/ridiculed. If I have house mates I need them to be nice and generally positive rather than cynical and negatively sarcastic. They need to care about how they live on this earth and how they treat their bodies. I need people that would not be offended by me spending a lot of time doing my own thing,alone, holed up in my ‘studio’(whatever form that may take) Hopefully they will be between the ages of 26-40. Rent needs to be $450 or less and it should be within a 10 minute bike ride to downtown Portland.

How it might come to me-
someone that hangs out here might know of something, or someone I can talk to. Craigslist. Maybe I will run into someone at an art show or other event and they will know of something. Maybe old friends will need a roommate.

My commitment:
to scour craigslist, ask around and explore desirable neighborhoods by bike looking for “for rent” signs. I will not be hasty and compromise what I really need right now in a home. I will be honest with potential house mates and give them the genuine, real me when we meet to see if we are a good fit.

Last night I wrote out my mega personal ad for my 35th year- which kicks off on the 11th- and the main thing I wrote that I wanted to invite in was “flow” but “wu wei” actually describes it better. I want more wu wei in my work, my parenting, my free time, and my feeling great in my body.

Ways this might work:

I could stumble on a brilliant resource or two courtesy of a book, a blog, a teacher- whatever- that helps me to get more aligned.

I could just have something click in my conciousness that allows me to access this state more and more- these things do happen after all…

Some larger stresses and burdens could fall away and free up my energy to focus my flow or wu wei.

My commitment:

I’ll do the work to welcome in this state. I’ll spend more quiet time listening to myself and the world, and I’ll take the right actions as they present themselves.

I’ll keep the feelers out to all things flow and wu wei related.

Today I will ask for the next baby step. It seems that asking for one piece at a time brings me more clarity about what I’m asking for–and maybe also lets me feel less like I’m asking for unreasonable riches.
.-= Tracy´s last blog ..Retrospective: A Crack in Everything, Part Two =-.

Here’s how I want this to work:
I could get good advice (and take it). I could read an article about this sort of thing. I could be recommended a book. I could have the confidence to speak to my therapist about this and she could have good ideas. Magic. Anything the cosmos is willing to share with me.

My commitment:
My commitment is to work with my Stuff as it comes up. Clearly this is a loaded issue for me on many fronts. I commit to showing kindness to myself and my friends. And other stuff I can’t think of right now. Attention. Finding space to feel safe around this issue. Paying attention to my scarcity mindset. And other things.

What I want: To accept that this hurt is normal and to find a way through it, at my own pace, without judging myself for that.

How this can happen: Allow myself moments alone to cry. Share my pain with understanding friends. Get out of the house and do something with others, every day, to get my mind on different things.

My commitment: To forgive myself for needing to slow down a little and to allow myself to lean on others when I’m not feeling strong. To understand I will get through this, when the time is right.

I’m right there with you. My Hubby is very good at what he does and has a great job. I started over three years ago, and no where near where I want to be. It’s hard. I’ve been working on my self-doubt and learning to trust myself and what I want for myself. I also need to stop thinking, “I’m a crappy blogger, a bad writer, a twit.” I think the same exact thing, and I’m trying to tell myself I’m a good writer and good communicator. I can make this work. Not that telling myself makes it any easier, but I think I’m starting to believe it, so I’m hopeful.
.-= Shawna R. B. Atteberry´s last blog ..A Warrior at My Window =-.