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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Note! I am still away on silent retreat at the VICARAGE.

So this week’s visions will be quieter than usual because: silent retreat!

Thing 1: Finding the fountain.

Here’s what I want:

Alon gave me a clew before I left for the Vicarage.

And the clew was Find the fountain.

Not a fountain. Find the fountain.

And I have seen some fountains. But this is about finding the fountain.

The qualities inside of the want:

Presence. Revealing. Water. Passage. Delight. Resonance. Recognition. Internal quiet. Willingness. Trust. Congruence. Remembering.

And the superpower of following instincts: knowing when to turn left, when to look up, when to pause.

Ways this might work:

Listening for the splashing sounds. Knowing that water holds and transports and cleanses.

I’m playing with…

Taking things to that fountain.

Thing 2: Easy transition.

Here’s what I want:

This week I return from the Vicarage and I am not ready to return from the Vicarage, and oh, process.

I want this transition to be easy, pleasurable, straightforward.

The qualities inside of the want:

Protection. Tenderness. Vulnerability. Passage. Safety. Shelter. Simplicity. Laughter. Presence. Delight. Wonder. Crossing. Readiness. Unveiling. Revealing. Watching. Welcoming. Trust.

And the superpowers of This Doesn’t Have To Be Hard and I Don’t Have To Do Anything Because It Is Already Happening..

Ways this might work:

Well, you know. The fountain probably knows.

And the compass. I can use the compass.

I’m playing with…

Silent retreat.

Thing 3: Time for entry and exit.

Here’s what I want:

There is a version of me who knows how to bring the Vicarage with her, and who knows how to make enough room for all the things I will be feeling about the return. I want to access what she knows.

And I want to make this the softest, quietest landing possible.

The qualities inside of the want:

Sweetness. Steadiness. Acknowledgment. Comfort. Care. Harmony. Wisdom. Patience. Steadfastness. Grounding. Enthusiasm. Sovereignty. Hope.

And the superpower of being able to take exquisite care of myself. Exquisite care. Yes.

Ways this might work:

I don’t have to know this yet.

I’m playing with…

Being clear about how I want to feel.

Noticings about the things I want this week…

I know so much more about what I want than I think I do. And I care so much less about the how than I ever have before.

Trust trust trust trust trust trust trust. And taking exquisite care of all of my selves.

Bonus wishes, please!

Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

  • Elasticity.
  • Letting silent retreat be its own buffer.
  • Sunshine.
  • People who are enthusiastic about my return.
  • Playmate.
  • Stones.
  • Clues
  • Treasure.
  • Rest.
  • Flowers and secret flowers and all the flowers.
  • This is the right time to come back.
  • Following the compass. Vitality leads.

I’m playing with…

When you love something, you create safety for it. Like with a tiny, sweet thing. So what about when I am my own tiny sweet thing?

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I’m going to take a silent retreat on this too. Will report back once I’ve returned and landed.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.