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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Note! I am away on silent retreat at the VICARAGE.

So this week’s visions will be quieter than usual because: silent retreat!

Thing 1: Noticing all the noticings.

Here’s what I want:

To notice all the things that want noticing.

To be with them. But mainly to be with myself while I notice them.

The qualities inside of the want:

Quiet. Attentiveness. Receptivity. Shelter. Spaciousness. Containment. Belonging. Pleasure. Welcoming. Strength. Congruence. Harmony. Readiness. Willingness. Trust.

And the superpower of looking up at the right moment.

Ways this might work:

It might take some crying. It might take a lot of walking.

I’m playing with…

Remembering that there is time.

And if I stop or if I forget, nothing is wrong.

Thing 2: Giving myself permission.

Here’s what I want:

To give myself permission.

Permission to do, permission not to do. Permission to want and permission not to want. Permission to like and permission to not like anything. Including permission!

The qualities inside of the want:

Tenderness. Vulnerability. Pleasure. Safety. Curiosity. Shelter. Patience. Wonder. Play. Desire. Quiet. Listening. Curling up. Rest. Contrast. Breath.

And the superpower of This Doesn’t Have To Be Fraught Because It Can Be Playful.

Ways this might work:

I do have a slip…

And you know what else has a slip? A boat.

I’m playing with…

Talking to Incoming Me about this.

Thing 3: Everything that is not here fades away.

Here’s what I want:

While I am at the Vicarage I am not thinking about Stompopolis or Hoppy House or the playmate or [challenging thing] or [X].

I mean, it is quite likely that I will think about all these things. And maybe that will be great. Perspective! But mainly what I want is to have these things feel loved but not like something I need to focus on.

What I want is to be completely in the experience of Vicarage-me and how she is while at the Vicarage. I want to be living the essence of the Year of Emptying & Replenishing (Y.E.A.R.)! (password: compass).

The qualities inside of the want:

Presence. Commitment. Steadiness. Grounding. Alignment. Resonance. Radiance. Humming and glowing.

And the superpower of being both a light and a bell.

Ways this might work:

Silent retreat.

I’m playing with…

Silent retreat.

Noticings about the things I want this week…

Presence. It’s big. Both being present, and being present with my own presence, and being present with everything that is present. Also: presents.

All the presence/presents. May it be so.

Bonus wishes, please!

Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

  • Presence.
  • The compass.
  • Remembering what matters.
  • Making space for all the things that need space.
  • Smiling.
  • Balance.
  • The clue that me-from-five-years-ago knew about: it has to do with an island. This is the fifth place of the five places, my love.
  • Treasure.

I’m playing with…

Putting the treat in silent retreat.

Paying attention. Getting quiet. Even quieter than that.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I’m going to take a silent retreat on this too. Will report back once I’ve returned and landed.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.