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Each week I write these Visions of Possibility and Anticipation to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Thing 1: Horizon and water.

Here’s what I want:

Horizon. And water. And an absence of most other things.

I have caught the tiniest glimpse of a possible pirate queen holiday. It’s how I imagine it would feel to get an accidental peek at the fair ankle of a lady when you’re a knight back from doing knight-things. Not sure where that came from. But I’m sticking with it.

The point is: I am fascinated. And aching with longing. I WANT THIS SO BADLY. It is not just a vacation, it is off the grid. It is water and horizon and writing, and I want.

The qualities inside of the want:

Desire. Faith. Trust. Presence. Heart. Certainty. Sovereignty. Rest. Vision.

And the superpower of remembering the humming castle: being the queen means humming the hum.

Ways this might work:

Processing. Planning. Both in the hard and in the soft. External and internal.

In the soft: More talking this through with my you can’t go on vacation and if you do you can’t tell anyone about it monsters, who are the second-most vocal clan.

In the hard: Tracking down the right traveling companion. Setting it up. Making space. Finding out which loose ends need to be tied up by which dates, and will doing that destroy me or is that just monsters? Because it kind of seems like this might require DOING ALL THE THINGS before I go. But if I don’t go, this is a disaster. See? Doing things in the hard invariably also turns out to be about the soft.

But mainly: it could just work. I need this.

I’m playing with…

Interviewing both Incoming Me and the me-who-has-come-back-from-this-holiday, to see what they know.

Thing 2: A quality in a quantity!

Here’s what I want:

At the Sunday cafe I order a pot of Harmony tea. Harmony! In a pot!

This, to me, is the funniest thing ever. It is direct-to-the-Havi-funny-bone funny.

Just the idea that you can get a quantity of a quality is hilarious.

Like, I would like a bucket of trust please! With a bowl of focus. Also let me trade in this cup of despair for something else because it’s not actually mine.

I want to see and feel this everywhere, by playing with it.

Look, it’s a bus shelter of shelter! It’s a truckload of wonder. Like that.

Also Harmony is what the last Incoming Me wanted me to call her, so it feels like coming home to her whenever I order a pot of her name.

The qualities inside of the want:

Playfulness. Presence. Appreciation. Delight. Silliness. Laughter. Perspective.

And the superpower of looking inside of things.

Ways this might work:

Planting it here.

I’m playing with…

Being playful and also drinking lots of tea.

Thing 3: Clearing out the cobwebs.

Here’s what I want:

Lots of Congruencing.

That is my word for clearing things out, throwing things away, moving things around. Whatever feels like it is in support of congruence.

I don’t like to talk about organizing. It’s not about that.

It’s really about the opposite of stagnation. It’s about choosing flow. It is clearing out everything that is sticky and cobwebby and done.

Anyway, I want a lot of this. ANd I’m a bit worried because I already have a ton of things to do, and also there are some serious piles of iguanas and doom to look at and INOWANNA.

So I guess what I really want is for congruencing and cobweb-clearing to be energizing and fun. For the mood to strike! As it has in the past few days. Basically more of that.

The qualities inside of the want:

Play. Lightness. Support. Form. Freedom. Possibility. Wonder. Spaciousness. Harmoniousness. Movement. Flow. Excitement. Anticipation. Glow.

The superpower of letting new air in.

Ways this might work:

Whenever I get a burst of energy.

A piece at a time. Just one thing. Or: ten things gone. Wandering around the house and pretending that Incoming Me is the guest-lover-friend I am preparing for. Because she is. And I am.

I’m playing with…

Goodbye, cobwebs!

Noticings about the things I want this week…

Like last week, a craving for playfulness and laughter. Also this element of desire and anticipation. And there is also a theme that feels like water. Not just water itself but the superpowers of water to move things and clear them.

Bonus wishes, please!

Some of these are secret agent code and some of them are things I’m silent retreat-ing on. Some are qualities that will help. And some are almost pre-wishes: tiny seeds for future processing.

  • A talk with the me who has not bought [X] for Stompopolis yet. Why is it good that it has taken this long? Find out what she knows about right timing.
  • Fun percentages without context! With thanks to Bonnie for the best idea ever.
  • Post the herring.
  • Notes for the dolphin adoption agency? Yes, that’s a proxy too.
  • Alchemilla.
  • A delight-filled Hannukah. Light. Candles. Levivot. Warmth. Singing. Friends. Dedication and rededication of spaces, internal and external. Happiness and ALL THE FRIED FOODS.
  • Write and send an invitation for [candles].
  • Find out if Noah wants to come have dinner at Hoppy House.
  • Ask for bolster recommendations.
  • Sign-ups for my class on TIME! I am very excited about this class and I kind of think everyone should be. Also, it’s the prerequisite for the Year of Emptying & Replenishing.
  • The red rose missive.
  • Beautiful hangers that can be displayed. Wood?
  • Energized peacefulness!

I’m playing with…

Using the paperless app to make this fun. Asking R or M to come with me to the cafe. The magic of Fake Beach Day. And of course the superpower of Dedication. Speaking of which:

HAPPY SECOND NIGHT OF HANNUKAH, you guys. Chag urim sameach.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted to experiment with living by the motto of We Shall Be Chill And Defrazzle. Which kind of worked and kind of didn’t. Actually, no, it did. I learned a lot about things that work and also about things that don’t. There were good pockets of peacefulness.

Also I am using my Conducting Vault (more on that to come) more, and that is helping with both the chill and the defrazzling.

Then I wanted to watch the barns burn while drinking whiskey. And I did. Maybe someday I will write about it.

Next I wanted help with and/or from the Magical Badger Brigade. That started out really stressful but I ended up having an outrageously productive week where things that haven’t moved for months all got done. So: yay.

Also big appreciation to the Floop where I played and problem-solved all week. The best.

And I wanted delighted enthusiasm for the Year of Emptying & Replenishing, and this happened too! Beyond expectations. And also I love that my people have shortened it to Y.E.A.R., which I think is funny and perfect and sweet.

Playing. Shelter for the comments.

What’s welcome: Your own wishes, gwishes, visions and personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like. Things sparked for your own process.

I’m receptive to warm wishes for the things I’m working on and playing with.

We ask for what we need, and we give each other space and spaciousness for the process.

This is a place of safety for creative play and exploration, with a very non-dogmatic approach. We don’t tell each other how to ask for things and we don’t give unsolicited advice. We play.

That’s it. Let’s throw a bunch of things in the pot!

As always, amnesty applies. Leave a wish here any time you want.