very personal adsPersonal ads! They’re … personal! Very.

So my itty bitty personal ads made me realize that it’s time to make a regular practice of trying to feel okay asking for stuff.

Even when the asking thing feels weird and conflicted.

Ever since I posted the first one asking my perfect house to find me, which united me with Hoppy House, I have been a fan of the madness that is personal ads.

And now it’s my weekly ritual. Yay, ritual!

Let’s do it.

Thing 1: to be able to TRUST THE TIMING OF THINGS.

Here’s what I want:

There’s a lot that’s undecided right now. And not really up to me. Waiting on other people’s decisions.

I’m ready to get better at actually believing that things are going to work out, and that whatever way that is will be okay. Somehow.

Ways this could work:

It just could.

I could do Dance of Shiva on it.

I could cry some more.

Or I could wake up feeling mysteriously hopeful like I did this morning.

My commitment.

To notice where I am with this.

To not be impressed by the fact that yeah, we’re still working on it.

To be genuinely curious when my monsters show up.

To breathe and write and dance until I know that the right thing is coming.

And if that doesn’t happen, until I remember something else that is reassuring and beautiful and true.

Thing 2: to close the doors to Camp Biggification.

Here’s what I want:

I’m doing work on The Playground this week. We have all sorts of fabulous fun-brewing things going on.

I want to let four more people into the wacky adventure that is Camp Biggification and then close it down.

This week is crazy with teaching and other developments, so I won’t have time to do anything promotional.

So I need the last four lovely people to come find me in the next day or two.

Ways this could work:

It just could.

I could send a letter to my private list of people who are awesome (aka the Hey I’m Doing A Thing list from the events page).

Perfect timing.

My commitment.

An outrageously great experience that changes everything. But in a good way.

To make sure that each person who comes feels welcomed and loved. To be joyful about us finding each other.

To laugh and play and be happy. To find out what kind of pie we’ll be having.

Thing 3: more movement with the Shiva Nata website.

Here’s what I want:

We already made a bunch of changes to the Shiva Nata site.

It’s time for more.

I’d like to write some FAQs without going crazy. And to add a page about the new studio.

To put in updates about the teacher training being full. Stuff like that.

Ways this could work:

I could magically get in the mood.

Or find a window or two this week.

I could dance on it and get some Shivanautical epiphanies about why I’m in resistance.

My commitment.

To put this here as a reminder that it’s important to me.

And then to give myself permission to let things percolate for a while.

Thing 4: a perfect, simple solution

Here’s what I want:

A perfect, simple, elegant solution to this issue that has been costing me sleep.

Ways this could work:

Breathing. Hoping. Wishing. Loving. Waiting. Trusting.

I don’t know.

My commitment.

To keep returning to the possibility that this perfect, simple solution exists, whatever it is, and that it will find me. Maybe it is finding me right now.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I asked for faith, and help maintaining it. And that’s definitely been the theme of the week, for sure.

With ups and downs. But always the focus.

Then I asked for a new way to be in the state of waiting for things. And that has been really interesting. I get it in flashes. And then it’s gone. And then it’s back.

Very cool. Will wait and see how this develops.

I needed a name for Camp Biggification (and I got one). Whew. And now it’s time for the next part of that ask to get some attention. Useful stuff.

Comments. Since I’m already asking …

I am adding to my practice of asking for stuff by being more specific about what I would like to receive in the comments.

Here’s what I want (just leave them in the comments):

  • Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

What I would rather not have:

  • Reality theories (can we avoid words like “manifest”?)
  • Shoulds. As in, “You should be doing it like this” or “That’s not the right way to ask for things — instead it should be like x, y and z”
  • To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given advices.

My commitment.

I am committing to getting better at asking for things even when asking feels weird.

Thanks for doing this with me!