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Each week I write these VPAs to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

Thing 1: recovery time!

Here’s what I want:

Feeling a bit worn out and in need of some off time.

Ways this could work:

I have no idea.

Looking at my calendar is depressing the hell out of me, so something is just going to have to open up.

My commitment.

To remember what happens when I am rested. To keep talking to Slightly Future Me and find out how she would solve this.

And to keep being receptive to those perfect simple solutions.

Thing 2: consolidate new Rally systems

Here’s what I want:

At this past Rally (Rally!), I made a ton of systems changes.

Some were fabulous. Some were less successful.

But it’s time to do a spangly Revue and take notes about what worked and what didn’t. And then set things up for next time.

Ways this could work:

Maybe I’ll head over to the Playground and make a day of it.

Maybe I’ll get some more help from Cairene, who is brilliant with systems and was also in attendance at the last Rally, so she’ll be full of great ideas.

My commitment.

To cheer enthusiastically for the parts that worked and be inquisitive about everything that needs to change. To find the good.

Also! Speaking of a) Rally and b) how marvelous it is and c) systems!

There is still one Stowawayship scholarship to the June Rally if you want to try and apply for it.

Thing 3: support with risk-taking

Here’s what I want:

I’m normally quite good at taking risks. It’s kind of part of the whole weird business savant thing.

But right now I’m in the middle of a biggification growth period, and I know what’s involved with this particular risk. Yes, I’m taking it anyway but it’s also kind of terrifying.

So I’m asking for ease, support, comfort, faith and whatever else is needed to help me feel ready to do this.

Ways this could work:

Using Shiva Nata for the hot buttered insights needed to get me where I’m going.

Rituals and reminders, like Hello Day and my morning bath and whatever else might help.

Posting to the Deguiltified Chicken board at my Kitchen Table program to get lots of help and encouragement.

Hiding in the blanket fort.

My commitment.

To ask curious, loving questions. To not push. To meet the pain with love, if I can.

And if I can’t be patient with the hard and the stuck, may I remember that this is also normal, legitimate and understandable.

To process the process for as long as it takes.

Thing 4: two large bulletin boards

Here’s what I want:

The Playground needs two large bulletin boards!

Ways this could work:

I think the first one we found on Craigslist. Worth a try.

Could be that one of my PDX people has one or knows where to find one.

Magic!

Thing 5: a really big wish!

Here’s what I want:

This is such a giant gwish that I’m scared to write it. Gwish-whispering!

In fact, this giant gwish is actually more of a full-body hum, and it goes like this:

When are the Timbers going to call me about leading them through pre-match agility, adaptability and extreme-coordination warm-ups?

Ways this could work:

Aside from wishing?

I’m just going to keep whispering this one for a while. And try to figure out what the essence of the wanting is.

I also want to remember that what I’m asking for is not the thing itself but for me to feel okay about wanting it, because that is always the first step.

My commitment.

To keep singing in the shower and to practice wanting what I want.

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I asked for excitement for the newly renovated Toy Shop and got it! There was much excited squealing from people who had been to the Playground before over how beautifully and dramatically things had been transformed.

Yay! Thank you. Hugely appreciated.

Then I wanted insights about epiphany-tracking, and I think I’m on a pretty good track with that. Still much testing to be done, but feeling better about this.

Still wanting a new tech pirate. No movement on that front. Except! I had a mini-epiphany about that, thanks to Shiva Nata.

It’s not a tech pirate that we want. It’s a handyman. Or woman. But the point is that the metaphor has been all wrong. So I’m going to consult Metaphor Mouse and get some more information on that.

And I wanted to announce the Stowawayship scholarship and did not do that. In fact, completely forgot. What’s that about? I’m going to find out. :)

Comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

Your own personal ads, small or large. Things you’ve asked for. Or are asking for. Or would like to ask for. Or updates on last time!

Stuff I’d rather not have:

The word “manifest”. To be told how I should be asking for things. To be judged, psychoanalyzed or given unsolicited advice.

Much love for your gwishes! So happy to have you doing this with me.