As my previous two VPAs have yet to resolve [awaiting feedback before the next step], I can’t update.
This week, I need a biggg favour from the universe.

What I want:
I need to people who want to live with me next year. Two people who’ll be focused on work; thus not noisy ’til 3am on a weekday. OR I need my landlady to calm down and trust that I will fill the two rooms, and provide two people for the next year.

How this could happen:
You’re the expert.. Erm… landlady could suddenly give me a nice extended deadline to find people. Two people could contact me or my housemate about the house.

My commitment:
To dance about this. To meditate and to do all I can not to let this ruin my holiday [as I can't do house viewings until i'm in that town, which will be mid-April]. To trust and have faith that two people will show up and it’ll all be sunshine and rainbows.
To take care of myself. I don’t do that enough when I worry.
.-= Rose´s last post … Cottage Retreat – Recognition ii =-.

Yay for naps!

(and now i get out of my head…)

anyhoo–i can also get a little tangled in pesach, which is my all time favorite holiday, with my all time favorite learning and themes and whatnot, because of all the prep work and my-customs-are-different-then-yours that goes on with my family…and this year, i am here with my beloved folks, which means a little teeny river of negotiation as i live with the fact that my parents don’t clean for pesach and i want to talk torah over dinner.

so, my vpa:
what i want: to connect to the themes of pesach that i love in a real and deep way. to find the joy in being together as a family. to have an ease-ful, beautiful, learning filled seder. to be charitable and hospitable to the uninvited guests and to remember that they could be prophets in my midst. to be calm and spot no shoes unless shoes are really being thrown.

how this could happen: i can do shiva nata and meditate to build up my calm reserves. i can remember that it’s one night, and try to take some of the weight away. i can help out my mom with cooking, so she can relax a little, too. i can journal and try to be more specific about the themes i’d like to call forth and investigate, to help me see them as they appear in my life.

my commitment: to prepare for the seder by doing shiva nata AND the list of to-dos my mom asked for help with. to see all the guests as manifestations of eliyahu ha-navi/ elijah the prophet. to see the seder as a learning opportunity, not a sentence or a conclusion.

chag sameach to all–may we all be liberated and free! may all those hungry for anything come and eat!

When the sun goes away, I miss it. I start feeling alone in the world and I feel more sadness.

Not sad because the sun itself is gone, but sadness and feelings and emotions tend to surface more in the dark when I am not outside singing and playing in my yard and feeling alive and happy.

So: My request is that I feel as happy to be alive in the evenings as I am when it’s day time.

Happy evenings. Full of joy, energy, and life. And excitement.

Ways this could happen:

- During the day when I’m feeling happy and safe and secure, I could work through some of my other emotions and feelings and sadness that come up at night. (Not very appealing right now.)

- Get on the Nap Wagon with Havi and take some. And not just take them, but go into them willingly and when they are required. (Today I fussed and mussed and procrastinated on my nap even though I sorely needed it.)

- Ask myself (especially when surfing the internet, Tweeting, or Facebooking) what needs is this meeting for me right now? Is there something else I could be doing that would meet those same needs? What might help me feel better? (I numb out with those things sometimes. Yeah, shocking.)

- I could plan some activities in my yard for the evenings. Reading a book on the lawn chair under a blanket with the porch light on. And some hot tea. Ooo! Love this idea.

My commitment:

- I commit to give myself fully to the act of napping when I can feel that it is time. I do know the feeling and I can respond and trust it instead of arguing with it and being a rebellious Kindergarten kid who won’t stay on her mat.

- I commit to plan some evening activities for in my yard. Yes! I have been making my yard so beautiful and I enjoy it so much during the day. So I’ll do some things out there at night! This already has me happier and it’s almost midnight. Cool.

- I commit to taking breaks during the day to rest. Because I feel so good during the day and get so excited and I’m happy, I often don’t stop for breaks. I just go go go. Then I’m exhausted and tired and way more prone to emotional blahs in the evening because my energy is drained.

- I am committed to being willing to feel good in the evening. Willing to release whatever pattern might be keeping me in a hold of feeling good in the day and crashing in the evening.

- I commit to being gentle with myself if I am crabby or sad or whatever after the sun goes down.

- I commit to listening to myself and giving myself what I require to the best of my ability. Right now, that involves the rest of my apple lemonade and some water. As well as reading Pooh before bed and thanking myself for shutting FB and Twitter and coming instead to Havi’s blog so I can deal with me and my stuff.

So glad you’re here, Havi. xoxo

What I want:
To finalize the content of this little class I want to teach. But more importantly, to know that it will help people (and to stop doubting it).

How this could happen:
Not really sure. I can keep meditating on it. And playing with it. And talking to the class, and my soul, and the soul of my business, to find out what’s needed. And I could *listen*, and somehow just know.

My commitment:
To keep meditating and doing Dance of Shiva around this. To give myself permission to put it down when I’m getting frustrated or tired. To trust that it will all work out, one way or another.
.-= Victoria Brouhard´s last post … Remembering =-.

What I want:
Ease and flow. This week is going to be a busy and stressful one, and I would really like it if at least some parts of it could happen with ease. Experiencing moments of flow would be an amazing bonus.

Ways this could work:
- It could just happen, simply.
- There could be perfect simple solutions for some of the stressful stuff, and I could remember to ask/look for them.
- I could decide that some of the things on my plate aren’t so crucial after all, and decide to do them later or even drop them.

My commitment:
- To keep up my daily Shiva Nata and journaling practice.
- To take care of myself.
- To do what I can, not impose impossible standards on myself, and not beat myself up about anything.
- To pay attention to what I can learn throughout this week so that future occurences of similar experiences won’t be as stressful.
.-= Josiane´s last post … Middle of the night musings =-.

Oh hooray for Sundays. Hooray for the VPA.

So much fun to read your personal ads. I love it.

@Char – that’s really beautiful. I appreciate how clear your commitment steps are. It’s obvious that you know a lot about what you want and what you don’t, and that you are going to honor your sense of what will be good for you. I admire that. Chag sameach, and I am sure everything you make will be amazing.

@Kat – safety and support!

@Kate – love for your ask!

Clarity and good stuff for everyone … happy happy Sunday. I will keep VPA-ing after my nap. :)

My VPA…

To have the funds to go on my meditation retreat in June and go on a vacation with my partner for our anniversary.

How this could happen:

My business could continue to increase at a steady pace, so that in a few weeks I have four clients a week.

The freelance research job that I think I have comes through.

My partner finds a new great job.

I sell my wedding dress to a delighted new bride.

Other magical ways I haven’t thought of.

My commitment:
To stay focused and dedicated to expanding my business.
To stay open to new as yet unperceived opportunities.
To be very present with how I am using my time, energy, and dealing with the monies.
To believe that these things will happen, easy peasy, while I’m still able to get the rest, exercise, and creative time that I need to be happy and healthy.
.-= Kate T.W.´s last post … Slower and Lazier =-.