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Each week I write these VPAs to practice asking for what I want. And to get clarity on what that really is, even when asking feels conflicted.

I always get useful information about my relationship with various aspects of the ask. Join in if you like!

So many wishes this week!

Thing 1: I need things to be easy, fun and magical.

Here’s what I want:

I would like to remember what it’s like when things can be easy, fun and magical.

Because sometimes they can.

This coming week has a HUGE number of wonderful but potentially challenging things.

I’d like to meet them all with grace and presence.

And not just to be able to handle it but to skip down the street in technicolor, singing Life’s a Happy Song like I’m in the muppets movie.

BECAUSE I AM.

Ways this could work:

Taking care of myself first so that I can connect to my internal hum.

Planting the qualities.

Pretending I’m at Rally (Rally!), even though I’m not.

I’ll play with…

Doing some stone skippings.

Investigating the internal rules I have that say big serious things absolutely absolutely always have to be a giant headache. Using Shiva Nata to rewrite these rules in sneaky ways.

Starting the day with the most fun thing I can think of.

Thing 2: Floop!

Here’s what I want:

The Floating Playground sets sail this week! On the DAY OF LEAP!

Which kind of solves my first thing because being onboard the Floop will be like being on Rally every single day. The Floop is basically all-Rally all-the-time. Except online!

My whole crew has been working non-stop for the past six months to get the new ship ready, and the past few weeks we’ve been hauling ass like you would not believe.

These next few days are hugely important.

I want everything to fall into place smoothly. I need the flappers or flippers or whatever the people coming aboard are calling themselves to do SO MUCH conscious entry and really prepare for the voyage.

I need everyone out of my headspace.

Ways this could work:

Now is not then. Now is not then. Now is not then.

I will use what I know now.

I’ll play with…

Being here now.

Wanting what I want.

Asking for what I want.

Strong, clear, loving, flexible, beautiful healthy boundaries.

Thing 3: Now We Are Six!

Here’s what I want:

I’m gearing up for a big month of internal and external anniversaries and celebrations.

And also trying to figure out how to include my community in this as well.

Ways this could work:

I don’t know.

I’m going to have to meditate on it.

I’ll play with…

Being receptive to a variety of ways that this could work.

I can set it up in a way that will be fun for me, instead of worrying about what everyone else likes, wants, thinks is acceptable.

I can find out what I’d do if money and time weren’t issues, and maybe that will give me some clues to follow.

Thing 4: Getting Directives.

Here’s what I want:

The Director and I were talking all the time, and then I got busy with things and we didn’t get to hang out yesterday.

I want to be with her all the time.

Ways this could work:

Connecting to her first.

Interviewing her.

Taking her out to lunch.

I’ll play with…

Remembering that she likes to hold my hand. Asking her to hold my hand.

Thing 5: Next week’s Secret Escape!

Here’s what I want:

I wish to Joyfully Abscond for my birthday week.

Ways this could work:

Oh I have absolutely no idea. In fact, I’m feeling really anxious that it won’t happen.

I’ll play with…

Asking the Director to tell me what and how and when. Now? Now!

Thing 6: Let’s get the first painting party going!

Here’s what I want:

We’re almost ready to paint the new Playground space. I would like to throw the first painting party this coming weekend, but it’s going to require lots of set-up.

Ways this could work:

We could get some information about when the cleaners are coming. The First Mate could give me a YES. We could set up a Frolicsome Bar (facebook) event and invite people.

I’ll play with…

Doing an OOD. Committing to this being a delight-filled experience.

Thing 7: Mission-related. Let’s have EVERYONE happily not being me!

Here’s what I want:

I want to introduce you to two sweet, wonderful, thoughtful and creative people, both of whom are a) named Amy, and b) do not want to be me.

There’s Amy Goetz in Seattle who knows she doesn’t want to be me, and Amy Gutman in Massachusetts who also does not want to be me.

They both came to this important conclusion independently of each other, and yay!

And, thank god, there are lots of other people out in the world who have realized the same thing.

Hurrah! No one should ever want to be me. Or to be Amy. Or the other Amy. Or anyone else for that matter. Trying to channel another person’s genius keeps you from being the conduit for your wisdom/power/qualities.

And it also goes against the mission.

The mission, of course, is to interact with yourself and your stuff in order to get to know how you function and who you are and what you need. So that you can meet yourself and your stuff with sweetness and understanding. And maybe even with LOVE.

We can be inspired by other people and they can be beacons for us. Their light helps us see our light. But our focus is still internal.

I want people to get the mission. Everyone. All the time.

I want everyone to know that THIS is what I care about. That trying-to-be-like-X is painful and tragic and to be avoided at all costs.

You can actually have more of what that person has when you’re in your flow and not trying to access their flow. Does that make sense?

I want people to remember that of course I am always going to support their them-ness. Their endeavors into learning what that is and how that works. I want this to be a given.

And then let’s go beyond defining ourselves in relation to things but just shining our beautiful shining and humming our beautiful hum. Unapologetically. In our own way, without having to know what that is. Just getting quiet and finding out.

Ways this could work:

Planting the seed.

Releasing attachment. Working on my stuff.

I’ll play with…

Silent retreat!

Progress report on past Very Personal Ads.

Just to update you on what’s happened since last time.

I wanted more yoga during Rally and it happened. I did a long practice before the Orientation, and on Toozday and Wednesday nights after the Evening Chicken.

Then we asked for support with grant proposals and two people wrote in with ideas, thank you!

I wanted changes to pirate queen HQ, and have been making steady progress there.

And I silent-retreated the last ask, but there’s movement on that as well.

A good week, all in all. It always helps to ask.

Play-filled comment zen. Here’s what I’d love today.

  • Wanted: Your own personal ads, small or large. Updates on past ones if you like.
  • You can also do these on your own or in your head. You can always call silent retreat!
  • Leave your gwishes! Throw things in the pot!
  • Things we try to keep away from: the word “manifest”, telling people how they should be asking for things, unsolicited advice.
  • VPA amnesty applies, of course. Leave yours any time between now and next Sunday (or whenever, really) — it’s all fine by us!

xox