This type of work is so deeply personal. Really, beyond sharing resources, no one can tell anyone else how to take these journeys, and I would never presume to.

Just lovely!

Jen M.
JenniferLynn Productions

And it’s cool since once you have a name or tangible concept of a problem, then you can start actually working on it. (I might have a bad grumpy day and sometime in the afternoon I realize: “Duh! I’ve had a headache this whole time. THAT’S what this is. It’s not angst and oppression; it’s that my head hurts and I should take some ibuprofen and I’ll feel better.” And it works. I’m happy the headache medicine works, but I feel goofy for not having noticed sooner.)

So now I can start to conceptualize a base image from all of your descriptions, Havi — “hunh, are my problems a tall barrier/wall? dark? brick? thick heavy smoke that won’t go away? When I can see this wall, what do I do next?” (talk to it, compassionately, is your answer. I’ll admit that this is one of the few things I haven’t tried yet.)

Anyway, here’s cheering you on for further success in your secret mission!

I want to be like Havi when I grow up!

I love to read your posts about talking to your walls and blocks and weirdy nests of squiggling gooey things because you write with such wisdom about your vulnerability and finding someone who also believes that our blocks are there to be learned from rather than denied and stuffed in a corner, is just fantastic.

More! More! I cry.

And thank you. Again. As ever. :)

Wormys last blog post..Revelations – not the ones from the Bible though.

This is so cool and I’m glad that you’re willing to explore your stuck-ness with us through your blog

What follows is my personal experience:

I was just thinking today of something that Steve Chandler says: “you don’t want to die with your music inside of you.”

I’ve been sick for over 3 weeks with what appears to be a virus. It’s actually a major internal remodelling job going on inside my psyche according to my naturopath – that’s why allopathic doctor’s can’t find anything really out of line with me healthwise.

Yet, I’ve been incredibly nauseaus, had a feeling of being underwater literally i.e. fullness in the ears, achiness in the jaw, etc. All of this began as a result of some pretty intense dental work I had a few weeks ago.

ANYHOO, not meaning to hijack your blog here – what happened for me as I read this was I realized that somehow I had taken that remark of Steve’s and my stuckness said “well, let’s get nauseaus, have a little inner ear-play while we’re at it and maybe some congestion so that you can’t really find out if you even have any music in there at all.”

I befriended this “sickness” of mine as I was reading your blog and realized that the “sickness” is actually fear of success in disguise.

And that’s okay.

I’ll stay with it and see what’s next. Like you say, there’s probably a good reason for this – maybe it’s just gotten a little twisted somehow and we’ll un-kink it together.

So, back to your experience:

The thing is, Havi – that I got so much clearer on my own stuckness as a result of reading about your experience.

I especially liked your italicized note at the bottom that says clearly that you’re not looking for suggestions.

And, one more thing about me:

Neither am I. My naturopath refers to this as being “self referencing” which means needing my own feedback and reflections – and the peace and quiet to hear myself think.

Must be why I’m reading so much less these days and writing so much more.

Thanks for listening and also thank you Havi for being so transparent with us. Helps so much – it’s priceless!