Take Care,
Rose
.-= Rose´s last post … Cottage Retreat – Recognition iii =-.

After ten years of stops and starts and rewinds, I finally graduated two weeks ago. Now I’m off on a creative business adventure — which is awesome and worth it, but leaves me vulnerable to feeling TOTALLY overwhelmed at semi-regular intervals. I’ve been struggling against the fear, too, feeling like I shouldn’t be feeling it.

Been hanging around here for about a week now, and I sit here taking deep breaths and being reminded that I’m okay. Thanks.

I’m back in Santa Barbara visiting friends this week and so being with lots of fears and regrets and my past life… and love. And sunshine. It’s a lot, so much so I put my friend’s electric kettle on the range this morning and burned it up… I just had to laugh, after I got the burnt rubber off the butcher block counter. Talk about being off kilter, Jen!

Fear, oh baby, yes, and add to that mid life hormones and what a wild ride. I love reading your journey and you even gave me an idea for a fiction piece I’m working on!

Jennifer Loudens last blog post..Retreat ReWiring

Thank you so much for being personal and sharing your techniques. Thank you also for having the guts to say, “I’m not looking for [XYZ] so don’t leave that comment here.” I think it’s the fear of others’ responses that leave some of us hesitant to open up in the first place.

Sherris last blog post..Photos: Sunday Cooking

As for the last section about the post being too long — I disagree. I was very interested in what you had to say and really enjoyed reading all of it. Thanks for sharing it with the world.

Positively Presents last blog post..i (want to) brake for happiness

Also love that you have come to some of the same conclusions I have about fear (“I can remember it, without living *in* it.”) around the same time. I had that thought a couple weeks ago, and there it pops up, in your blog…

I also have a serious crush on Jennifer Louden, for the exact some reasons… Her recently blog on worrying about being a fake really resonated for me, too. I thought, “OMG, she thinks that too! Is EVERYONE in my brain?! Or… am I in everyone else’s brain?!”

It’s like an X-Files episode, only much cooler, and less scary.

I admire and respect you but think of you more as a really cool friend who’s good at looking at things in ways that didn’t occur to me than a heroine. You’re much more approachable and real than somebody who would stand on a pedestal. (For example, yours is the one blog I regularly comment on, not only because your posts contain so much meaning but also because of the way you interact with the folks who comment.)

You gotta do what works for you, but know that I’d keep following you if it meant using carrier pigeons and waiting weeks for one of your wonderful posts. I offered to be Naomi’s enforcer, but if you ever need a cheerleader let me know.

May your fears never keep you from growing and laughing, but serve to keep you safe and healthy. And may you experience some of the joy and wonder that you bring to me and others on a regular basis. Peace be with you and in you…